p.A Twisted Road Ahead

The last part is here:   Personal Depression

Life is absolutely interesting.

A blooded relation once told me that I am totally interesting. Every time, he talked to me, he claimed that I will have a new twist in the tale.

"That, my dear, is painful. The reason why I have so much tale is because my path was not wise. I took the longest road to succeed." Do remember always a rolling stone gathers no moss.

Many have taken the straight road to success. But, recently that was also in doubt during the recent events. On the other hand, I have chosen the longest road to success. That too, my dear, I am afraid is also not the shortest path to success. What then is the correct road to succeed?

There is no straight answer. Some times people like to involve the word luck. I opined differently. Luck only seeks the hard workers. But, hard-working is considered given in the competitive market. If every one is hard-working, then how Tengri is going to seek out the lucky ones. Puzzling indeed.

Recently, one of my major projects was staled. Tengri has instead opened a new tiny window for me. Not just one but two. I now have a headache as to which path to take. A truly twisted path instead.

Recently too, I have refocused my path. I have chosen a truly difficult and twisted path to travel. I have lost interest in walking straight paths. My daily companion is my tears. I hope one day Tengri is kind enough to let me through.

Twisted road, twisted tale, twisted man, twisted pride.

I thought my eyes can no longer weep. But, when I do meet difficult decisions and humble people, I will weep with no restraint.

One day, I hope to declare to myself that I had never lived my life in vain.

b.Longevity Businesses

The last part is here:   Passion Business I - Trust 

I felt sad today. The decision to kill off a poisoned branch is made. Although there is a chance of losing another 5%, I guess I have to do it. Right now, the opponent is trying his best to salvage what's remaining. I had given him more than 3 chances in the past to make good, but he failed to do so. He loved to bully a youngling.

Along the way, I met more proprietors that are willing to go on the longevity wagon. Maybe things may not happen, maybe things might happen. At least, I am not bound by the old issues.

The path towards building longevity has so far been met with great comfort. I just met another proprietor having issue of 气. He was hospitalized for it. He was very excited about the prospect of high-value longevity farming. He proposed ideas of meeting more people in the same interest. He simply wanted to commercialize immediately these longevity concepts.  I smiled.

I said if the cost of investment merely managed to make you live longer by 20 years, wouldn't that be sufficient return? Lots of businesses cannot stand the sands of time because the younglings are unable to cope with the continuance of businesses. Say, an old fucken guy in an old fucken island, if he had a choice of living another 20 years, his fucken younglings wouldn't be so hapless. This fucken would have owned the entire enterprise for a long, long time to come.

He finally understood my longevity idea. He now understand that if we ourselves cannot be old fuckens, how dare we preach longevity to others. If what we believed, works. Then, we need not even be trading it. It could be used as a weapon against all odds. A business brewed for another 20 more years under the same stewardship would be scary to our opponents. Imagine you char kway teow, instead of 20-80 years (60 years), it is 20-100 years (80 years), who can hope to punish you in your arena. The last 20 years is to kill off the succeeding younglings of the competition in one single stroke.

The thought is simply mind-blowing.

Another proprietor showed me 2 canisters of honey which she declared of high value. I said that two canisters can't even hope to complete one bottle of mead. She swallowed hard. She had prevented even her kins to consume it like sugar. Imagine what life-giving would a well-fermented and aged bottle of mead will do to her health? She was floored.

I told her. Even with great daily exercises, it is still insufficient to have longevity. One must consume daily supplements. Some of these essential supplements are so expensive that only the kings and queens find them cheap enough, hence, the only way is to get at them is to farm them on a continuous basis.

After she listened to my list of supplements and how I intend to farm them all in all parts of the world. She agreed that she will help me to the fullest.

I smiled.

b.Passion Business I - Trust

The last part is here:   Passion Business I - Taste 

The time has come to decide on trust. The factory is ready. The deals are struck. The labourers are few but capable.

Many opinions have suggested against the new partnership. I think so too.

As in all deals, there would be good parts and bad parts. If the bad parts weigh over the good parts, I guess the decision would be easy. If the weightage is balanced, then the decision making is also easy, just abandon the deal. It is hard if the majority of the deal is good, but with a few bad major parts.

My current decision point is this partnership is weak. But, the greater good part is that I will have company. I guess I need to be strong. Very strong.

Tomorrow would be the day of reckoning. I will have to decide on the issue of trust.

It is ok that I go at it alone. There was nothing in the past of me and there is nothing in front of me. So why be so concerned? I have been so alone. I don't need to be so concerned about loneliness. Yes. Loneliness is sad. Loneliness is draining. Loneliness eats the soul. But, why must I be so afraid? Loneliness is just a state of mind.

Warmth may be a super tempting commodity at all times. But, I needed a trusted partner not someone whom I have to guard against always.

If tomorrow is indeed a good day to negotiate, I will drop all pretence and ask for the one important question - trust.

If the answer is truth, I will go forth with this partnership. Else, I will plot my separation and severence.

I have walked this question of trust before. I shall walk once more.

It is very interesting that now that I have spoken about it, I felt so much better in dealing with it. Thank you.

g.The Adventure

The last part is here:   Trust - Vincent van Gogh

Again long time never write about the topic.

Maybe part of growing old is not to expect anything. Maybe growing old means to accept the fate that comes.

Sometimes I wondered if I should go out and meet lotsa gals and find the one I am attracted to. The problem with me is that if I put my mind on going out and getting to know lotsa gals, except for a few isolated cases, most gals will accept me for who I am. So I am always caught in a bad dilemma, what is therefore fate and love? So many gals, some very pretty, some very smart, some very homely, some very spikey, some very bitchy, some very educated, some very hysterical, some very demure, while others are strong-headed. In fact, there was never a dull moment.

But, deep down, I was and still am a simple mind. I yearn for simplicity. A simple folk with a very humble dream. I just hope to find one that is simple and kind. I hope to bring her for an adventure.

In this adventure, I hope we can see the complete wonders of the world. There is no need to prove anything.

In about 3 years' time, let us start humbly with the silk road trip. It will take about 60 days and we will re-trace the entire silk road. Thereafter, i hope for every 3 years, we will go on a 30-60-day trip to explore this earth.

b.Passion Business I - Taste

The last part is here:   Passion Business I - Great Wine Fermentation 

It's been a while since I last wrote about wine-making.

Here is my pigeon account:

Most people in the wine-making industry would like to mystify the wine-making process. Once upon a time, I crapped up tens of thousands of dollars to get a gal to concoct the best wine for me. Fuck her! All my money were wasted.

Wine-making is actually very simple. If you study the wine scientifically, you would realise that only about 11%-17% are alcohol, the rest (which is actually the majority) is still very much fruit juice. Therefore, to start the wine-making, one must have the most tasty fruit juice to start.

So the most tasty fruit juice must come from fruits that are sun-ripened, i.e., the best fruits must be naturally sweet while it is still on the tree. Most fruits in the markets are plucked well before they are ripened. Hence, they are not sweet and only marginally sweeter after a few days; the fruits are ripened artificially using funny methods, such as putting in rice sacks and so on. Hence, the first step is to collect sun-ripened fruits.

Once juiced, the must may be very nice and very tastefully sweet. But, this will still make very bad wine. The must must have a certain level of acidity, i.e., sour. That is why lemon juice when nicely sweetened is one of the hot ladies' favourite. At this point, it is important that you let a few gals to taste the must. They would always like a hint of sour-ness.

Water is always an enemy to the wine-making. Use pure spring water if you can. Notice the fucking hawkers will always add syrupy water to buffer their fruit juice and they taste horrible. Hence, never add water to the must if at all possible.

Even if the must tastes sweet, it is still not enough to start the fermentation and not be poisonous. The yeast must take control of the must. Any wrong conditions, the bad bacteria or other organisms will take over and you would be out of business quite soon. Sugar has to be added. Make sure the sugar is of the highest quality and dissolve quickly.

The next step is to add the yeast. There are too many yeast species. Hence, learn to find the right ones by playing god. This is a trade-secret and shall remained so.

The rest of the additives are also trade secrets.

So please don't mystify wine-making. It is actually quite simple to make a decent wine. But, wine with character is a different kettle. This type of wine needs great experimentation.

The other important factor is aging. Any brandless wine when aged correctly will taste like nectar, i.e., (in Greek and Roman mythology) the drink of the gods.

p.Show - 神雕侠侣 (1983)

The last part is here:   Show - 蝶影紅梨記

The show is here:   神雕俠侶 1983 (劉德華版) (Chinese)
or   神雕侠侣 1983 (刘德华 粤语/国语版) (Cantonese, slow)

The song is here:    留住今日情 The Return of the Condor Heroes - 張德蘭

留住今日情 
张德兰 《神雕侠侣》插曲

人间一切换了真爱 也莫去管人说是傻
任他世事全是障碍 此世此生也知非白过
曾经相见别去转眼 也莫痛苦何必悲哀
独知那日曾沐爱河 无谓悔恨未会感慨

那怕是苦缠绵只是愿 当日曾相爱
不必理今日梦不重来 心内情义誓不改
人间一切换了真爱 也未痛惜无叹奈何
雁分两地情义永在 谁惧以后梦也不可再

The song is here:   情義兩心堅 The Return of the Condo Heroes - 張德蘭

情義兩心堅 
原唱：張德蘭 作詞：鄧偉雄 作曲：顧嘉輝

情若真 不必相見恨晚 見到一眼再不慨歎
情義似水逝去 此心托飛雁 遠勝孤單在世間

情若真 不必驚怕聚散 變化轉瞬也應見慣
誰願去揮慧劍 此心托飛雁 縱隔千山亦無間
愛比朝露 未怕短暫 存在兩心堅 情不會淡
別去已經難 重會更艱難 愛火於心間 不冷

情若真 不必苦惱自歎 縱已失去也可再挽
情緣至今未冷 此心托飛雁 那怕悲歡何妨聚散
愛比朝露 未怕短暫 存在兩心堅 情不會淡
別去已經難 重會更艱難 愛火於心間 不冷

情若真 不必苦惱自歎 縱已失去也可再挽
情緣至今未冷 此心托飛雁 那怕悲歡何妨聚散
情緣至今未冷 此心托飛雁 那怕悲歡何妨聚散

Wow ... Managed to finish the show. 人间一切换了真爱, 也莫去管人说是傻. May all those in love stay in love and those yet to love, find love. 

There are still many good shows. Let's enjoy the show and explore more ...

p.Song - Morning has Broken

The last part is here:   Trust - Vincent van Gogh

The song is here:   Cat Stevens - Morning Has Broken - [Live 1976]

Morning has broken, like the first morning
Blackbird has spoken, like the first bird
Praise for the singing, praise for the morning
Praise for the springing fresh from the word
Sweet the rain's new fall, sunlit from heaven
Like the first dew fall, on the first grass
Praise for the sweetness of the wet garden
Sprung in completeness where his feet pass
Mine is the sunlight, mine is the morning
Born of the one light, Eden saw play
Praise with elation, praise every morning
God's recreation of the new day

I am sorry. I realized the more I collect. The lonelier I become. The greater the equation, more whites are becoming friends to me, but to what end?

Of all the things I have collected, I lack the most important one thing - warmth.

The winter chills are raging just outside the window, you can't even spend 10 seconds outdoor. The -35degC will freeze your ass off. Come to think of it, life is so fragile. Just step off the house, in less than 5 minutes, I would have absolutely no more feeling.

Every time, a major event hits me. This song will come to my mind. For each fucking time, I was always so happy and yet at the same time, so apprehensive for the world ahead. Without someone beside me to wild my time off, I will always be apprehensive I guess.

News really travel fast and far, now every yellowskin and white congratulated me on my new found rank. Without a close kin, such victory is so hollow.

Let's hope that when I am finally home, there are still kins left.

Let's enjoy the song ...

b.xox - Ashley Madison adultery website sued by former employee

The last part is here:   Strategy - Sexy Business of Illegality

Ashley Madison adultery website sued by former employee

The Canadian Press, Nov. 10, 2013 

A dating website for married people who want to cheat on their spouses is being sued by a former employee who says she damaged her wrists typing up hundreds of fake profiles of sexy women. Doriana Silva is seeking $20 million from Ashley Madison for what she calls the company's "unjust enrichment" at her expense, plus another $1 million in punitive and general damages.

In her statement of claim, Silva — a Brazilian immigrant living in Toronto — says she was hired to help launch a Portuguese-language version of the site and promised a starting salary of $34,000 plus benefits. She was soon asked to create 1,000 "fake female profiles" meant to lure men to the new Brazilian Ashley Madison site — and given only three weeks to complete the work, the document alleges.

"The purpose of these profiles is to entice paying heterosexual male members to join and spend money on the website," it reads. "They do not belong to any genuine members of Ashley Madison — or any real human beings at all."

The allegations have not been proven in court and Ashley Madison has yet to file a statement of defence. The company, which describes itself as a dating service for married people, did not respond to requests for comment.

In her claim, Silva says she didn't question her assignment, and no one at the company suggested there was anything "unlawful or improper" about the alleged phoney profiles. In fact, she was led to believe "that doing so was some sort of a normal business practice in the industry," it says. Had she been aware of the "ethical and legal issues arising in relation to online fraud," Silva would have turned down the work, she alleges in the document.

Creating the profiles "required an enormous amount of keyboarding" and Silva developed severe pain in her wrists and forearms, the claim says. She alleges company brass ignored her complaints and her request for a wrist rest. The pain soon made it impossible for Silva to do her job and she has been unable to work since 2011, the document reads, adding she "remains seriously disabled in many if not all aspects of her life."

In her claim, Silva says the company has refused to grant her workers' compensation or insurance despite an earlier agreement she would be covered, and the costs of physiotherapy and other treatments are adding up.

"Doriana's injuries are permanent and her prognosis is uncertain," the document says.

The suit was filed last year but stalled while the company petitioned the court to strike references to "ethics" and "unethical practices" from the statement of claim. But a Superior Court judge found the references necessary to describe "the factual context in which the injuries were sustained," a decision that was upheld on appeal this month.

Silva's lawyer, Paul Dollak, said while compensation for personal injuries is usually calculated based on how much that person has suffered, his client is instead seeking a share of the money earned through the profiles she created.

On its website, Ashley Madison says it does not pre-screen members and can't "guarantee the authenticity of any profile," warning that "anyone who is able to commit identity theft can also falsify a dating profile."

AM is so hot recently. It definitely has gained lots of publicity without having to pay for it. AM will gain a little bit more money, but that's it. You can never base your business proposition through falsehood. You will fall flat on your own face. Business is not a joke. It cannot be taken lightly. Employ falsehood, every joker will tell on you once you show a little promise. These fuckens are too green with envy to let you have a fast ride.

Just read the claim statement, it was not crafted with compensating injury in mind, but to share in that profit margin. Crazy fucking bitch. She will fail in her attempt.

So to believe that being an immigrant is a poor thing. Think again. They will fuck you up good once you show any weakness. To prevent that, make sure you don't dabble in absolute illegality. Bordering illegality on the right side of the law is good, but never walk into the absolute dark side. You have too many enemies to start with.

g.Trust - Vincent van Gogh

The last part is here:   Book - Far from the Madding Crowd

When one is lonely, it is so easy to cry. Every little opportunity is an opportunity to cry. Facing the four walls and with the slightest sound, the walls will resonate non-stopped. Tonight is that night. So silent, so cold and so very alone. The throat tasted bitter and swollen.

Without fail, the past will just zipped by like an old, old worn movie. Repeating every scene of regret as if I had not been punished enough.

Vincent has accompanied me through some of darkest times in my life. The song (Starry Starry Night) sang by Don McLean on his behalf was and still is so apt for me:

I used not to understand why Vincent could cut his ear as if it was never a part of him. Now I understand. When life is so painful to continue living, even extreme physical pain is no longer as painful as the heart's pain. I was once like that and now I understand even more so. Whenever I think of her, I really don't mind cutting myself up and pay with my blood, if only I could turn the clock back and unblood my hands ...

I don't mind losing any gals in my life. Even if I had invested true feelings in them, I wouldn't even mind the numbing of the soul after that. But, gals are never merciful creatures. They will always seek to destroy the guy's total mind and soul to exact their price.

For this one gal in my life, it was amazing that for all the things I have done for her. She chose to take away my entire soul as payment. I didn't fail her in any aspect. We had afterall 一夜夫妻百日恩。Why the need to hurt some one you have loved so dearly once. Sigh ...

"This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you."

I don't know where is she now. I just hope that she is happy and find peace. So much blood ... Tonight allow me to drink to your health. I pray that the little one will too bless and love you always. After all, you were once a mother to him.

I wrote this essay is not to lay blame on anyone. I just wish that there was never blood in my hands ... I was never born ruthless ...

“Be clearly aware of the stars and infinity on high. Then life seems almost enchanted after all.”

“It is good to love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is well done.”

“I dream my painting and I paint my dream.”

“There is nothing more truly artistic than to love people.”

“I don't know anything with certainty, but seeing the stars makes me dream.”

“I would rather die of passion than of boredom.”

“If you hear a voice within you say 'you cannot paint', then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced.”

“The fishermen know that the sea is dangerous and the storm terrible, but they have never found these dangers sufficient reason for remaining ashore.”

“I put my heart and soul into my work, and I have lost my mind in the process.”

“What am I in the eyes of most people — a nonentity, an eccentric, or an unpleasant person — somebody who has no position in society and will never have; in short, the lowest of the low. All right, then — even if that were absolutely true, then I should one day like to show by my work what such an eccentric, such a nobody, has in his heart. That is my ambition, based less on resentment than on love in spite of everything, based more on a feeling of serenity than on passion. Though I am often in the depths of misery, there is still calmness, pure harmony and music inside me. I see paintings or drawings in the poorest cottages, in the dirtiest corners. And my mind is driven towards these things with an irresistible momentum.”

“What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?”

“It is with the reading of books the same as with looking at pictures; one must, without doubt, without hesitations, with assurance, admire what is beautiful.”

“I try more and more to be myself, caring relatively little whether people approve or disapprove.”

“Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together.”

“At present I absolutely want to paint a starry sky. It often seems to me that night is still more richly coloured than the day; having hues of the most intense violets, blues and greens. If only you pay attention to it you will see that certain stars are lemon-yellow, others pink or a green, blue and forget-me-not brilliance. And without my expatiating on this theme it is obvious that putting little white dots on the blue-black is not enough to paint a starry sky.”

Now you understand why Vincent is my true friend?

I hope I can still sleep a little ...

g.Show - 致我们终将逝去的青春

The last part is here:   Song - 心債 1984

The show is here:   致我们终将逝去的青春

18岁的郑微（杨子姗 饰）终于如愿考上青梅竹马邻家大哥哥林静（韩庚 饰）所在学校的邻校，等她满怀期冀地步入大学校园，却遭遇打击——林静出国留学，杳无音信。郑微倍感失落，患难时刻与室友阮莞（江疏影 饰）、朱小北（刘雅瑟 饰）、黎维娟（张瑶 饰）及师哥老张-张开（包贝尔 饰）结 下深厚友谊，同时富家公子许开阳（郑恺 饰）对郑微展开了疯狂的追求，而备受男生欢迎的阮莞用她特有的清冷守护着对于心爱人赵世永（黄明 饰）的忠贞。一次偶然的误会使郑微与老张室友陈孝正（赵又廷 饰）结为死敌，在一次次地反击中，郑微发现自己爱上了这个表面冷酷、内心善良的高材生，于是疯狂地反击演变为死缠烂打地追求，而陈孝正也终于在强攻之下缴械投降，欢喜冤家终成甜蜜恋人。大四毕业之际郑微的生活再次经受考验：陈孝正得到曾毓（王嘉佳 饰）的出国留学名额，却迟迟不敢告诉郑微，感觉再次被欺骗的郑微痛苦地离开陈孝正…… 　　多年后，郑微已蜕变为职场上的白领丽人，竟再次品尝命运的无常：带着悔意和爱意的林静和陈孝正同时回到她的生活里！郑微，这个昔日的玉面小飞龙，将怎样面对生活和青春赐予她的迷雾和抉择……

If a gal treats you honest and well, you must never ever bluff her. Unfortunately it is so ironic that the guy will always think he could get away by bluffing her.

The guy in the show made his career on top of his gf, which I feel is not wrong. But, he should have told her about it. Every gal loves a career-minded guy. There is nothing better than a guy who is career-minded and able to feed the love nest.

But he must never think that being ruthless, intelligent and topping in his studies alone is testimonial to being that man, successful and all-powerful in real life. I have once gone through that same path. I received no joy. I received no satisfaction.

After I have studied the results discovered by Dr Calhoun, I came to realise that I hate my intelligence. Intelligence is a curse of that fucken little island, it drove me to bitter ends. Everything I did, I did it with the measuring tape of the dollar sign. It sickened my stomach as I wrote. There was no love of the land. No love of existence. No desire to do good for the family. Everything was about showing off to the Joneses. What a waste of my life.

It is so hard to find someone who can be honest to you for a life-time. If I ever find one, I would have clinged on to her with my dear life and never let her go.

To regret and wallow in the past is not an answer to lost opportunity. Trust me, you can never take that bitterness. I hope within my lifetime, I am still given another chance. I promised to do it well.

Now I only have my blog to talk monologue to ...

I guess no matter how big the warship is, it still needs a harbour to come to rest ...

Let's enjoy the show ...

p.Show - 错龙袍/倾城雪

The last part is here:   Show - 精忠岳飞 (Part 2)

The show is here:  错龙袍/倾城雪

If you want plenty to cry but afraid to let others around know that you are crying, just watch this show.

Maybe I am just an old worn record repeating so many things. Give everyone a chance to show you how good they are. Give them some patience. Give them time to align themselves to you. They will eventually.

With the conquest at the land of crescent lake more or less in the bag, suddenly I noticed everyone is aligned to me. To some, their alignments are true. I know that deep in my heart. To many others, I know their alignments are driven by greed. These guys just want to share the mammoth I have landed.

To those fakies, just give them time to show themselves. Pull back all the resources that you might have given them. They will be spiteful but who cares. If they beg to return, maybe consider giving them another test. If they passed the test, then consider giving them a minor role. Never entrust them anymore with big items as they have proven to be unworthy.

For those faithful ones, treat them like family members. They will serve you well. Money will come in well if you trust your own family members well.

Dwell in every happy moment and grit that teeth during the sadder ones. It is always like that. 9 out of 10 is always sad.

g.Show - 像风一样行走

The last part is here:   Skirt Chasing - Bluff the Guy a Dream

The show is here:   像风一样行走

This is a very lousy show. Just some boy-gal-boy relationship issues. What struck me was that this kind of theme is very common.

In life, it is almost impossible to find a gal that is so truthful to a guy. If you ever find one, please learn to treasure her. You must have earned tons of brownie points in your past lives that give you this one chance in lifetime to find someone so truthfully yours. (Sigh ... so iterative ...)

If I ask if you like to grow old with me? Would you have agreed?

Let's enjoy the show ...

题都城南庄 Written on (a wall of） South Village in the Capital
唐（Dynasty Tang） 崔护
去年今日此门中（zhong）， This very day last year，at this very door.
人面桃花相映红（hong）。 The pretty face outshone the peach blossom.
人面不知何处去（qu）， I don't know where the beauty go，
桃花依旧笑春风（feng, ancient sound is fong）。 The peach flowers still smile in vernal breeze.

桃花庵歌
[明] 唐寅
桃花坞里桃花庵，桃花庵下桃花仙。
桃花仙人种桃树，又摘桃花换酒钱。
酒醒只在花前坐，酒醉还来花下眠。
半醉半醒日复日，花落花开年复年。
但愿老死花酒间，不愿鞠躬车马前。
车尘马足显者事，酒盏花枝隐士缘。
若将显者比隐士，一在平地一在天。
若将花酒比车马，彼何碌碌我何闲。
别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿。
不见五陵豪杰墓，无花无酒锄作田。

p.早知今日事, 悔不慎当初。

The last part is here:   醉卧沙场君莫笑，古来征战几人回？

The guy from a little island today tried to win me back by giving me things for free and in lieu. The value of these things may or may not be greater than his rescinded contract. It is no longer important in my eyes. The value lies in the trust and honour. A non-monetary contract once agreed must be honoured.

A business empire is never built in a single day. When will a business be called a business empire? It is only when it is big and it has gone through many rounds of pain. For each growth, it must be nourished by trusted lieutenants. Without these trusted lieutenants, the business can never be a business empire. Each lieutenant is both an important ring of power and an indigenous member of inner circle.

早知今日事, 悔不慎当初。

This is not a zero-sum game. We have both lost. I have lost time and some money. But, since I can afford to walk away. He would be a fragment worse off as his option is limited; he now cannot foresee his future as being independent. I am afraid he is now on his own. I cannot help him anymore. I have lost my trust in him. He no longer wins my time. I would not be able to spare my time or money with him. Sorry.

一身转战三千里, 一剑曾挡百万师。

p.绝情

The last part is here:   Fate is Strange

我曾经以为不会讲完的故事，其实早就准备了物是人非的结局。我曾经以为不会散场的青春，只剩下写满告别的字句。

在人生的旅途中，我们谁都不知道，谁会与谁相遇。那些路过的风景，只是眼前掠过的一道光。转眼，即逝。每一天，在等待与期望中而过，每一天，都与陌生人擦肩而过。我们不断的遇见，彼此的脸庞在那段路上开始捻熟，我们不断的错过，熟悉的脸庞开始遗忘。... 谁不是谁的陌生人？！我又是谁的陌生人呢？

我曾经以为那么重要的你，也可以心平气和地只放在回忆里。

选择遗忘，我只是为了更好的活下去。那种疼，你不懂，你也不在乎。就像我们是两个世界的人，仅仅只是过客。你的不在乎，你的冷漠，让我看透了。

可不可以有一个人，可以看穿我的逞强，可以保护我的脆弱。他会在我的眼泪掉下以前，就用大大的手掌捂住我的眼睛，轻声说我的眼睛只有微笑的时候才是最好看。

以前认定的一切，在年华匆匆而去的时候，只能摇头叹息。

我知道，你终将离去，即便没有秋的到来，你一样会悄无声息的远去，如一缕轻烟凭空而绕，丝丝缕缕只是你对尘世最后的眷恋，散成丝，幻成梦。在我眼里倒映成最后的印象。在下个轮回里，我会有一双翅膀，去追逐你渐行渐远的美丽。

有些束缚，是我们自找的；有些压力，是我们自给的；有些痛苦，是我们自愿的。

原以为放弃一段感情，是暂时的泪滴，而非痛苦的延续，可是当你真正放弃的时候，才发现，原本快乐的心，从此闯入了忧伤的领地，等真正清醒的时候，才明白，曾经的放弃，却成为了一生的悔意。

我没有办法向你承诺我会一辈子对你好，因为我们总会有别离。

想哭的时候，闭上眼睛不让流泪；伤心的时候，找个地方静静的发呆，告诉自己、要坚强；孤独寂寞的时候，静静的听那些一起听过的歌；难过的时候，学会了伪装自己，对别人笑；失落的时候，笑着对自己说、没事的；失败的时候，尽管无力也要爬起来，告诉别人，我很坚强。

对过去的追思，耗时且没多少意义，从无先天注定的不幸，只有死不放手的执着。

有些事，在历经沧桑后，开始不着痕迹的更改。曾经，不管握得有多紧，最终都会失去。而我们，正在逐渐的老去。爱情，始如耳后的风，轻轻的拂过。最终，我们还是会一无所有。

谁也不会是谁的宿命，谁也不能是谁的永远。

有些事，不可避免地发生，阴晴圆缺皆有规律，我们只能坦然地接受；有些事，只要你愿意努力，矢志不渝地付出，就能慢慢改变它的轨迹。

时间是世上最温柔的刀子，会磨平所有的梭角，承诺，就像随着风，飘零如雪的花瓣。

我难过的是，放弃你，放弃爱，放弃的梦被打碎；忍住悲哀，我以为，是成全，你却说你更不愉快；我难过的是，忘了你，忘了爱，尽全力忘记我们，真心相爱；也忘了告诉你，失去的不能重来。

每到夜深人静，我才倍感寂寞倍感心酸，孤傲的人心易碎，总是看到他人双双对对，才觉得，一小我好孤傲，只是真心已不在，真心已不算。

邂逅的瞬间，我站在你的面前，只是个陌生人。是浮华的化妆舞会，散场以后，一个落寞而黯淡的女子，是烟花一样虚空的美丽。喜欢这样的文字，把自己沉在一个最卑微的姿态局里，不需要任何人的理会，独自一个人在角落里笑着哭泣，不需要谁再来打扰属于我的宁静生活。

一些文字，很短很无奈！等待你的关心，等到我关上了心。

我们并肩坐在冰凉的台阶上，有风吹过，有爱来过。却最终被我们，一起错过。 原来，时间真的像流水，走得悄无声息。很多时光，很多事情，很多人，永远只能存在记忆里。

走完同一条街，回到两个世界，想你的时候有些幸福，幸福得有些难过，所谓最难忘的，就是从来不曾想起，却永远也不会忘记。

过去的总挥之不去，将来的却迟迟未来。满眼的迷茫，无限的空寂。

对于某人，早已走出我们心里，可一想起依然会隐隐地心疼；对于一段感情，觉得早已荒芜，可我们依旧会在回忆中黯然伤神；对于一条路，已经走到了尽头，我们还会在梦幻中寻找出口...

望一眼叹息崖，喝一碗梦婆汤。谁在轮回里垂泪，谁在尘世间无语。

曾经，在一段短暂的时光里，我们以为自己深深的爱那个人，后来，我们才知道，那并不是爱，只是寂寞对自己说的谎。你以为不可失去的人，原来并非不可失去，你流干了眼泪，自有另一个人逗你欢笑，你伤心欲绝，然后发现不爱你的人，根本不值得你为之伤心。

这个世界本来就是痛苦的，幸福都是短暂的。有时要相信缘分。既然放不下，就不要刻意放下，把她放在心里吧，能遇到一个让你放不下的人，也是一种幸福。

人的一生里要遇到好多人，有些人就那样的匆匆从身边走过了，也就走过了。

你的人生路上，铺满了爱的花蕾，总有那么一朵属于你。不要以为自己永远无法走过，当明天变成了今天成为了昨天，最后成为记忆里不再重要的某一天，我们突然发现，曾经多渴望与一个人长相厮守，后来，多么庆幸自己离开了。

谁在神佛前祈祷，谁在流星下许愿。夜已深，又将逝去。

遇上你，注定伤悲；遇上你，注定孤独。若，爱去了，谁还为谁停留吗？心沉似海，一切恍然如梦。昨日亦如过眼云烟，随风消逝。蝶舞黄昏后，泪尽起风时。长亭雨又落，潇潇红尘路。

g.弃我去者，昨日之日不可留。 乱我心者，今日之日多烦忧！

The last part is here:   Fate is Strange

宣州谢朓楼饯别校书叔云   唐·李白

弃我去者，昨日之日不可留。
乱我心者，今日之日多烦忧！
长风万里送秋雁，对此可以酣高楼。
蓬莱文章建安骨，中间小谢又清发。
俱怀逸兴壮思飞，欲上青天览明月。
抽刀断水水更流，举杯销愁愁更愁。
人生在世不称意，明朝散发弄扁舟。

这首诗是李白于天宝十二年（公元753年）游宣城时所作。在诗中诗人借送别盛赞李云文章如蓬莱幽藏，刚健遒劲，有建安风骨，又以谢朓清新俊逸的诗风自比， 表达了对高洁理想的追求，抒发了自己年华虚度、怀才不遇、理想和抱负不能实现的抑郁苦闷。全诗感情沉郁奔放，波澜迭起，结构腾挪跌宕，语言豪放自然，音律 和谐统一，是李白的代表作之一。

“弃我去者，昨日之日不可留；乱我心者，今日之日多烦忧。”弃我而去的昔日时光已不可挽留，扰乱我心绪不得安宁的，是眼前诸多的烦恼和忧愁。

“长风万里送秋雁，对此可以酣高楼。”万里长风送走了一群群的秋雁，面对这壮丽的景象，怎能不开怀畅饮，醉卧在这高高的谢朓楼。

“蓬莱文章建安骨，中间小谢又清发。”校书郎（李云）的文章就像蓬莱仙山上储藏的图书那样，风格刚健清新，具有建安风骨。而我的诗风，也像谢朓那样清新秀丽、飘逸豪放。

“俱怀逸兴壮思飞，欲上青天揽明月。”我们都具有超群的凌云壮志，满怀着无限的豪情，准备登上高高的青天，去摘取那皎洁的明月。 “抽刀断水水更流，举杯消愁愁更愁。

”抽出利刀去断绝水流，水反而流得更加湍急，举起酒杯本想借酒排遣烦忧，结果反倒愁上加愁。

“人生在世不称意，明朝散发弄扁舟。”啊！人生坎坷竟然如此不称心如意，还不如明天就不戴冠簪，舒展着头发，乘上一只小船，在江湖上自由自在地漂流。

注释： ①宣州：今安徽省宣城县。谢眺楼：南北朝齐代诗人谢朓任宣城太守时，在宣城外陵阳山上所建的一座楼，人称谢眺楼，也称北楼。校书：官名，校书郎的简称。云：李云楼。校书：官名，校书郎的简称。云：李云，李白族叔，官秘书省校书郎。②弃：抛弃。③酣高楼：在谢眺楼上畅饮。④蓬莱文章：东汉朝廷藏书东观，所藏均是经典秘录，故以蓬莱仙山称之。这里代指李云所写的文章。建安：东汉献帝年号（196—214）。建安骨：建安时期，曹操父子、孔融、陈琳等人的诗作，反映了当时动乱时代的社会现实，诗作风格刚健清新，后人称为“建安风骨”。⑤小谢：指谢朓。世称刘宋时代的诗人谢灵运为大谢，称谢朓为小谢。清发：指清新俊逸的诗风。这两句借赞美建安诸子和谢朓，暗喻李云和自己的诗文风格。⑥散发：不戴冠和簪，指自由无拘束。⑦扁舟：小船。弄扁舟，指归隐江湖。

This is a very poisonous poem. If not careful, one can get killed by it. Caused a strong guy to wallow in his own shit. No many guys realized that sentimental feelings are always abound. Gals will screw the guy's up using these sentimental feelings. How many alpha guys were beta-rized by this instrument? Whether a guy is alpha or beta, it is just a temporary state of mind. For a guy to stay alpha, he will feel strong in hunting power, but dry in emotions. For a guy to stay beta, he will feel weak in hunting power, but rich in emotions. For gals, they prefer guys who are alpha all the time, i.e., always able to bring home the bacon. If they can't find it in the current guy, they will screw outside. That's when all hell breaks loose.

At the end of the day, it is always about balance. A simple balance between what's needed to be stable person. I just read a story about a gal who studied in Harvard and got a phD, didn't get married and finally went cuckoo (一生何求，十年后会是怎样。。) (too many of such stories for both guys and gals). She over-spent her time studying so much so that she missed her marrying time, she went crazy after that. She just simply didn't realize that she also needed love to survive. Her genes now of course will be unceremoniously removed from the gene pool. Even if she tried to reach nirvana in intellectual arena, she went cuckoo after that as she simply couldn't take the pressure. It is almost like learning wushu (武术), too much concentration, 入魔; too little, waste time.

If you are learning to do business, take the path that is least trodden by man. It is longer, it is more tedious, but yet, it is also the shortest way.

Just as I am writing, a just-retired baby boomer just wants me to have his piece of land at 50% discount. He is desperate for the deal. But, my crane told me to wait for the winter chills. There is simply no need for haste. The deal is extremely juicy, but my crane is no foolish advisor. She said it is never about the discount rate per deal, she knows this is already the lowest and the best deal in town. Even if I were to buy it during the winter chills, it may not be cheaper then. But, every thing has its own timing, i.e., one cannot over-stretch his muscles, there is always harmony in the movements - The mating dance of Business.

g.Pants Chasing

The last part is here:   Skirt Chasing

Caveat Emptor

Before I start, I believe every gal has a dream man of their life, and they all come in different shapes and specifications. So what I am going to write is only suitable to only a specific group of gals. It is by no means completely suitable for all gal groups. Hopefully, it speaks truth for most gal groups though.

Guy Mentality

By nature, guys are very simple folks. Their genes still stuck back in 200,000 years ago. Hence, innately guys are hunters at heart. After they have hunted the best animals, they will go back to their fruit-gathering woman groups and try to hump as many attracted females to the food table as possible. They really don't have much other greater ambition. Fast forward to today, guys similarly have 2 key worries: career and gals.

In career, they normally strive to hit the top as soon as possible as they wanted to show-off like a peacock to peahens and hope to attract the finest species. They do so by going to different channels. Some go into politics to acquire power (leader, individual). Some go into business and acquire money (employer, individual). Some go into facilitating a huge group in achieving goals (employee, group). Some goes into skill-selling (self-employed, individual or group). Some go into religion (mind-fucker, individual or group). Each of these pursuits has pros and cons. Each pursuit entails money and power, both money and power components ultimately are measured in monetary terms.

Sufficed to say, the winner is the guy who has absolute power over another guy's life-and-death, such as an emperor. Every guy dreamed about being an emperor. With the absolute power to life-and-death, the gals will clamour for his attention and it doesn't matter how many competitors and sharing. Given a chance, the gals will just go for it. Too juicy to let up the proximity chance. Lower down the power line are equally attractive too, such as court officers and so on ... So even traffic police sergeant got a chance to fuck if the gal kana ticketed.

Second comes the monied man. Not matter if you are a CEO of a huge corporation or a sampan, the gals will go for you if you are full of money. Ultimately, money is a good measure of the guy's ability to acquire luxury. The gal's key measure is only the amount of luxury the guy can supply and for how long. So even if the guy is an old fuck, the gals from 18 to 99 years of age will still be keen to know the guy. Such is the draw of money.

In gals, the guy's interest is actually very simple. He just want to ensure that his genes are carried to the next generation. In the past, the guy used to hope for 10 kids. But nowadays, he is lucky to have just one. His dilemma is huge. Coupled with the fact that the law-of-the-land prohibits polygamy, his bag of trick is now very restricted. It is therefore no surprise that the gals that he humps are as bad as whalers and porkies. He will always try his best to propagate his genes through very random liaisons. Prostitution is the modern solution of the government-of-the-day in reining in rape crimes.

Process

I have mentioned before, the total length of man is constant. If the guy spends his early years in grooming his fur, he will get tons of gals due to his youth and body. But, he will be poor and unsexed for the rest of his life. If the guy spends his early years in building his career, he will not get as many gals. Hopefully his investment in time on career pays off, he will be sexed for the rest of his life.

Gals don't really care whether his cock is young or old, she will sex him to sire the next generation if he proves to be the real thing. A guy can sire kids even at 99 years of age, if the young gal allows.

Beta and Alpha Males

Gals are extremely sensitive towards whether the guy is an alpha or beta. If he is an alpha, i.e., too many gals around him, the gal will sex him regardless to get his superior genes, as she has considered her peers must have done a good job in evaluating his quality. Her peers will even explain in great details his sexual performance. Sexual performance is equated to alphaness. Rough sex is clear indication of alphaness. That's why fantasy of most gals is to be raped. It will give them high when masturbating. An alpha is characterised by not being able to stay to take care of the young.

All other males are beta. Beta males are known to be great nest keepers. They stick to the nest and bring up the youngs. Given a choice, the gal will keep a beta male and quietly sex an alpha for his genes. The sired young will be brought up by the cuckooed beta male. Sad, but true. The risk involved in being caught is high, but the gal has no power over this tendency, it is coded in her genes.

Cuckoo game is very dangerous to the gal. If found out, the off-spring might be killed. Check the sexual habits of monkeys and lions. We humans are no different. I am puzzled that many gals behave with such tendency. As in order to reach today's generation, the beta guy's ancestors must have one time or another been made a general, else there is no way the guy's genes can propagate till this day. Playing the cuckoo game is not really that wise a choice. Gals are advised against this maternal instinct.

Methodology

Strong guys like to be pampered. A gal should never try to wear pants in front of the strong guy. She will fail big time. That being said, some guys like to be dominated. Some gals like to dominate. So to each their cup of tea. Exercise regularly and do doll up and make the guy proud to get her as his arm candy. If he don't even feel proud about showing her off.  Chances are that she as a gal has lost.

Quite a large number of gals are extremely lazy. She thinks that by having a golden pussy, she would have already won. Sorry, bad choice. A strong guy has full of choice. He is limited edition. Too many gals have sought his attention before her. So from young, he already had been schooled in this social game. His skill level is high and not much different from the gal's ability in social awareness. So go out to events, activities, festivals and parties that will fill with these princelings. Some princelings are quite shy and may not appear. They might even appear to be damn beta, but do be careful, these betas can become alpha overnight. Great examples are Warren Buffet, Bill Gates and Steve Jobs. 

It is that simple.

g.Show - 杀戒

The last part is here:   Skirt Chasing

杀戒 (The show is here:   杀戒(电影))

生活在小城里的美丽姑娘江月娥（倪妮 饰）刚刚经历过感情失败，却与高大帅气的肖立昆（刘烨 饰）偶然邂逅，二人一见钟情.因为一个突发状况，肖立昆与江月娥闪婚成为夫妻，并生下儿子肖磊.婚后夫妻之间出现了无法弥补的感情裂痕，肖立昆对于娇妻婚后的种种行为疑心重重，而江月娥亦有重大婚前隐情瞒着肖立昆. 　　在确认江月娥出轨后，两人毅然决定离婚，但江月娥不放心儿子继续跟肖立昆在一起，誓死争夺抚养权，肖立昆也毫不让步，决心守住自己的孩子.夫妻为儿子对簿公堂各施手段，江月娥突然在法庭宣称肖磊不是肖立昆的骨肉，要求做DNA亲子鉴定.目睹事件全过程的王晓娟（张逗逗 饰）来找肖立昆，道出肖磊出生的真相.精神重创之下，肖立昆回老家取出祖传的杀猪刀......

In the end, the cuckooed guy decided not to kill his wife and lover (sorry ... spoiled your surprise).

For me, if this event ever happen to me. I wouldn't be so kind. There are simply too many ways to employ tact to kill off the offending joker. I am a lion and shall remain so. Live by the sword, die by the sword. It is therefore always a choice not to play other guy's women, no matter how pretty. Choose the next unattached brand new sweet young thing.

Cuckoo birds have evolved a nasty habit of laying their eggs in the nests of other bird species, who then unknowingly tend to their young. But the fairy-wren has developed a rather ingenious countermeasure: Expectant mothers teach their unhatched offspring a secret password that they'll later need to get fed. The cuckoo chicks, who don't know the password, are out of luck. There are many aspects about this discovery that are fascinating. First, it's remarkable that fairy-wrens have evolved a mechanism to thwart Horsfield's bronze-cuckoo parasitism in this fashion. For a trait to evolve like this shows just how versatile and exploratory nature can be when confronted with a problem. But given how detrimental brood parasitism is to the host bird's reproductive fitness, it shouldn't come as a surprise that evolution found a way. Fairy-wren chicks taught secret passwords to thwart dickish cuckoo birds. And as the researchers correctly point out, it's a tactic that borrows from meme theory — the notion that ideas, and not just genes, can get passed down from generation to generation and used in an adaptive way. In this case, the meme is a signature element found in a one-note chirp.  Moreover, these memes — what are essentially passwords — are taught to the chicks while they're still in their eggs (what's called prenatal learning) during late incubation. So, by the time they hatch, the fairy-wren chicks already know what to ‘say' in order to prove that they're the real deal (and not a cuckoo chick). If the mother doesn't hear the proper "solicitation song," she will simply refuse to feed the chick.  And fascinatingly, if the entire nest is overrun by cuckoos (or chicks who don't know the proper password), she will abandon the nest and move on to start again. Yikes.
The researchers also noticed that mother fairy-wrens will teach the password to other caregivers of her young, including mates and other helpers. When they do this, however, they're out of earshot of the chicks. Which is smart.  They also noticed that the signature element varies from nest to nest; all passwords are unique and tied to a particular mother. Cross-fostering experiments confirmed that a fairy-wren mother will not feed a genuine fairy-wren chick if it doesn't know the password.

This is a very sad case of a stable and reliable beta male made unwittingly to take care of another alpha male's offspring. So read the book:   Sperm Wars by Robin Baker and learn well.

b.Contract - The fairness of the Whites

The last part is here:   Contract - The Colours of People

Whenever I needed services or contracts, the most natural thing to do was to contact all my kakis and asked them for their best recommendations.

How wrong! These kakis to their best of intention always recommend me their best contacts and services (usually ex-countrymen). But, the rates were deadly bad.

Now I understand why this is so: These contacts are usually already quite successful in their fields. So any recommendations that come through the grape-vines are just additional business to them. It is just icing on their cake. it is not bread-and-butter survival issue for them. Since I am not their friend or anything close, they always try their luck by quoting higher than market. If successful, nice hit, otherwise, tough love. No hit sustained. I am no friend to them anyway. They simply refused to be a hard-working cow.

After understanding this, I have since moved away from contact recommendations. The internet is now my best friend. Advertisements in the internet are usually almost free. Due to this, the goods/services are normally marked lowest possible. Hence, in the internet, I can find the best deals. If I don't like it, I moved on. Else, I will just take the listed services/goods for trying, after all it is always almost competitively priced. There is no further need in getting frustrated doing friendship tests.

That being said, I also now prefer to deal with the whites. They are extremely fair. One recent case, I pressed the panic button when I realized I have to pay a certain fee, without my knowledge, prior to engagement. But, the white said since I was not informed of the fee before hand, the fee was waived. it was that simple. This was not the only case, I have several previous experiences too. It was not because my fees were waived and hence, I found angmo tio kee. It was their attitude towards trying to be fair at all costs impressed me. They had motivated me to be as fair as possible myself.

Indeed, this is a good thing. I have also learned to pay what's due to Caesar.

b.The Hope in Stupidity

I have always wanted to write this post for the longest of time.

Now is a good time.

I have asked a colleague to source for a suitable vendor.

She began sourcing. As usual she hit road blocks all the way. Some of the quotations she got was so ridiculous, we seriously either doubt her communications skills in handling the task at hand or the vendors were too fat and complacent that they don't need any more new business. She showed no sign of despair and gave a very dry smile whenever we question her about the progress of the ongoing task during board meetings.

Three months later, she found 2 really suitable vendors of reasonable costings and the process was smooth henceforth.

Deep down I knew that she was sad and unhappy with herself. She didn't seem to blame us for giving her no morale support. This I must apologise for our insensitivity. We should have been a lot more supportive of her hard work and industry.

This is truly a very fine example of stupidity won us all. Indeed we have disrespected her. Her wit in fact is beyond the normal range.

In another instance, I have asked another colleague to source for property for purchase.

She found property after property ceaselessly for 3 solid months too. Some of the properties she listed were so interesting that even I have to reach my deepest pockets to get the cash so that I don't miss out on the opportunities.

During her search, she was ridiculed to the maximum by people around her as unrealistic and impossible. She has nothing but a pure grit of her teeth. Not an easy thing to do. Finally, even estate agents took their hats off to her when she mentioned the deals she has put together. It only showed her extreme dedication to the task at hand. Although she has zero training in real estate sourcing, she has unusual zeal in pursuing her task.

This is another super nice example of stupidity won us all. 

Conclusion

There is no such thing as a newbie to the task. As long as one is willing to learn and humble to his/her assigned task, with perseverance, there is no task too difficult to fulfill. There is always hope for stupidity. In fact, the final laugh belongs to the humble and hard worker. 若非一番寒澈骨 那得梅花撲鼻香

g.Story - The Challenge of Trust

Not my Story: 

I would just like to take this opportunity to share with all the married men here about my own life and hope that they can learn from my own misfortune.

I married my gf when I was 26. She was a typical average looking and conservative gal. We didn’t have any premarital sex and intimacy was confined to just kissing and hugging. I was looking forward to my new life and eagerly waiting for our first love making session. I was terribly disappointed. There was hardly any foreplay and we only did it in missionary. It was all over in 5 mins and the only BJ I got was she blowing a good night kiss to me. I accepted that and thought maybe she was tired. However, to my disappointment, things never improved.

For the next 5 years, sex was the same. Strip, kiss, missionary and sleep. Despite everything I did to persuade her to improve on our sex life, the answer was the same negative one. All this while, I pampered her with love, care, concern and luxury. I was 100% faithful and didn’t even hang out with friends. I admitted I was also very busy with work as I struggled to earn more to give her a better life but I was always around at night even though it might be past 11pm and weekends were thoroughly free to spend with her. However, despite doing all these, I never could change her. She would still be conservative in both her dressing and in our activity in bed. In fact, she wouldn’t even buy any nighties to wear at home, no matter how hard I tried to coax her.

I even bought a small car for her own use on our fourth wedding anniversary which made her happy but when I presented her the second gift, a simple nightie, she refused to wear it and threw it away a few weeks later. I was very much in love with her and continued to accept all these without once fooling outside. I was committed to my marriage and I told myself that if I love her, I need to accept all the good and bad of her.

Things started to change after 5 years of marriage. She started to buy clothing that was sexier like low cut dresses or camisole. She even started buying nightie, which she put on when we had sex. I was happy and thought that she had finally relented and was now trying to make me happy. Sex was still the same and BJ was still in non-existence but I was contended. I convince myself that over time, she would become more adventurous. However, things didn’t improve over the next 3 years.

Everything was the same. I became frustrated again but I told myself to be patient if I love her. Everything went about as usual until one day; I went home in the afternoon to have a change of clothing as the one I was wearing was dirtied. As I was looking for a new shirt to wear, I suddenly realized that one of her nightie was missing from the wardrobe.

I normally didn’t pay much attention to such things but somehow, that day, something just triggered me. I went about to the washing area and confirm it was neither been washed nor in the dirty laundry. Even then, I didn’t suspect a single thing. I even told myself that maybe she had wore it under her clothing to work and told myself for being silly. I forgot about the whole thing until I went home that night. It was late and she was already sleeping. I changed into my tees and shorts after my bath and brought my clothing out to the laundry basket. Just out of curiosity, I searched the basket for the missing nightie and didn’t see it. It was also not hung out to dry and I was feeling a bit uneasy.

Quietly, I went back to our bedroom and open the wardrobe. I found that nightie hanging inside. I took it out and went into the bathroom. I could see it was fairly crumbled, showing signs that it has been worn and there was her distinct perfume smell on it. My mind began to wonder. It was cleared it had been worn by her today so why didn’t she throw it for washing? I put everything back in place and went to bed. However, I could not sleep. I kept searching for a logical reason but I couldn’t find any.

Suddenly, I began to feel suspicious. Was she seeing someone else? I started to recall past suspicious incidents that I have brushed off previously and the more I thought of it, the more I felt uncomfortable. I couldn’t sleep that night and had problems focusing on my work over the next 2 weeks. While there were obvious tell tale signs, they weren’t conclusive. I also couldn’t bring myself to believe my conservative wife would have an affair. 

I started to pay more attention to her habits and behaviour and I started to see a trend. I found that every one or two days in a week, she would wear something more sexy to work and usually, she would only return home after 9pm, giving various excuses that she was either working late or met up with friends for dinner. 

Another pattern that I discovered was that each time any nightie goes missing from the wardrobe, I will find it hanging back in the night and she would definitely wear that when we had sex either the next night or the following night. I also realize that she was always on her laptop on nights that she didn’t go out and would spend like an hour or so on it.

On Saturdays when I play golf with clients in Singapore, she would say she needed to go back to work but never when I was playing golf in Johor. Another suspicion was that she would always call me when I am playing golf in Johor to ask was the game and what time I was going to finish, once or twice each time but never when I was playing golf in Singapore.

Finally, after 3 agonizing months, I hired a PI and 2 weeks later, I was shown evidence beyond a doubt that she was seeing some other man. I also found out that when I played golf in Johor on Saturday, that man came over to our house to stay for about an hour. I was furious by now but I wanted to know more. I wanted to know what they did behind closed doors and how long it had been going on.

I managed to install a key logger software on to her laptop and finally got access into it. I searched through her laptop and my entire world collapsed when I saw what I found. There were huge log file of her conversation on irc with that guy. There were also countless emails between them. Reading them, I realize they have been fucking behind my back for almost 3 years and have done almost every imaginable sexual act known. 

In it, they describe how much they enjoyed the fuck sessions when they did in various positions, not forgetting how she BJ him and let him CIM and swallowing his semen. They even had anal sex. That guy even wrote stuff like how turned on he was when she told him that she had kissed me when she returned home after she had just swallowed his cum earlier on. He even said he get’s super turned on when he fuck her while she wears one of the nightie as he knows she will wear it the next day with me but that I was having second hand goods.

There were even nude pictures and video of them in her laptop and I couldn’t bring myself to watch them in detail. I couldn’t believe it was happening. I confronted her with all the evidence and she admitted it. She even told me that it was good I found out as she didn’t want to hide it anymore and we eventually divorced.

It’s been 8 years since I divorced and it took me one whole year to recover from my shock as drown myself in sorrow, turning to drinking and losing my job. I finally woke up and started my own business and have been successful since. 

5 years ago, I started becoming an MILF guy. To date, I have lost count of the number of married women I have fucked. I am not trying to gloat about my “conquest”. I just wanted all married men here to know, don’t be too confident with your trust of your wife. Among the MILFs that I have had, they come from all walks of life, age and looks. Many of them are typical women that hardly anyone would expect them to fuck behind their husband’s back but they did. Lastly, don’t be a fucking cuckold like I was just because you think your wife don’t have a high sex drive or don’t enjoy sex. It might just be that she doesn’t enjoy it with you but is letting another guy fuck her brains out behind your back, just like what happened to me and like what I am doing now. No offense to anyone. 

This is a classic case of a beta male turning alpha. Everyone of us are capable of an alpha task, we just need to summon that beast within us.

The storyteller later went on to say:

We did bump into each other a few years later and even sat down to have coffee. That was how I knew that the guy dumped her. We didn't exchange numbers and haven't been in contact again since that one time.

I don't hate her anymore. I pity her. She could have been a rich tai tai leading a good life. Guess she choose the wrong man in the end.

So if you are a gal, be nice to that one man in your life, enjoy your sex with him. He will one day reward you for your faithfulness. If you are a guy, don't waste a single effort in looking for that one pussy, there are millions in the bush. Just build that fucking business empire. Need I say more?

As for the storyteller, his karma will hit him soon as he will soon find out that he can find no true love. To bed hundred of pussies, he must be heartless. Gals dig heartless guys. But since the guy steeled his heart from emotional investment, he will feel no pain, that is how he appears unfazed by the gal's beauty. Gals love cool cucumbers. At the end, the guy will get to screw the gals easily but he will never be satisfied as he showed no emotions even in sex. The storyteller will soon find out that he is not longer capable of loving, as he is suspicious of every single gal that he encounters. A sad way to end it all. This is the price he needs to pay for screwing indiscriminately.

In order to enjoy a relationship, one must invest feelings. But, once feelings are involved, the gals will know exactly how to unleash their most potent power of being a dreadful drama queen. The gals will find out and learn to twirl the guy with their immense beta-rization skills. I have found no survivors in these battles. But, truth be told, the guy will feel absolutely worth their while in the relationship (like the first five years of the storyteller's marriage). Funny shit!

I guess Buddha had gotten it right - the best way is always the Middle Way. In metta ...