g.Show - 非诚勿扰 (2014)

The last part is here:   Show - 非诚勿扰

The show is here:   非诚勿扰 (2014)

Hehehe ... To fight depression, I have been watching day and night the show.

The show is so interesting. You would find lots of assholes and nasty characters. You will see it in both guys and gals alike. There are goodies and there are nasties. I guess in life it is also the same.

I am going to embark on the largest project in my life and I have chosen too my partner-in-crime for the implementation.

I don't know what the future holds. But I am willing to give it a go.

Life is very short. I have already walk more than half way through. I don't want to keep guessing. I am going to go with the heart. Hopefully one day I can proudly proclaim that there is goodness left in the human race.

I just want to listen to a song:   新鸳鸯蝴蝶梦

昨日像那东流水离我远去不可留今日乱我心多烦忧 抽刀断水水更流举杯消愁愁更愁明朝清风四飘流 由来只闻新人笑有谁听到旧人哭爱情两个字好辛苦 是要问一个明白还是要装作糊涂知多知少难知足 看似个鸳鸯蝴蝶不应该的年代可是谁又能摆脱人世间的悲哀 花花世界鸳鸯蝴蝶在人间已是癫何苦要上青天不如温柔同眠

I still like 笑傲江湖 (粤版)

愿那风是我愿那月是我柳底飞花是我对酒当歌做个洒脱的我不理世界说我是何只要 ... 重做个真的我回问那假的我半生为何眠后醉醉后眠眠后再醉又眠岂求什么重做个真 ... 江湖笑.

How many of us can truly do the ultimate 笑傲江湖 ... ?

Let's enjoy the show ...

g.微电影 - 错位 [BD] [2014]

The short movie is here:   错位 [BD] [2014]

爱情是一个让人走不出的怪圈：真心爱你的人你不爱他，你爱的人心里又爱着另一个人。呼唤的和被呼唤的总是...

爱 and 被爱 ...

What a difficult choice ...

In my life, I have decided that I better be to be loved. The other way round, I always ended up bad.

Because of this, I guessed I do have an inferiority complex. Maybe my defence system is always on the alert ...

Let's enjoy the movie ...

p.Show - 衣锦还乡

The last part is here:   Show - 非常完美 (2014)

The show is here:   衣錦還鄉 [微電影]

衣锦还乡（或作“衣锦荣归”），穿着华丽的锦缎衣服回到家乡，在中国多指官员回到出生地或少时长期生活的地方探亲访友，其意与光宗耀祖类似，多用于仕途通达之人。衣锦还乡属中性词语，但不同的人会对其赋予不同的理解，正方认为是一种积极的荣誉，是对个人成就的肯定，是褒义；反方则认为是一种自我或家族炫耀，是贬义。

In this festive season, how many of us dare to claim that we have achieved this? I think not many. Even with the best intent and purpose, I have epic failed.

As written in all gal books, there was not a single occasion that one can make amend. The only option left is to move on and hope that the next person I encounter would be greater than the sum of parts.

I have tried my best. I can therefore only hope for the best.

In the show:

• Criminal - He took the fall for 10 years and the ring leader promised him $100k as part of the agreement. When he finally returned, his mother disapproved. His wife ran off with another gang member. His $100k was also makaned. In short, he returned home empty, crippled and jobless. His mother has no respect for him.
• Young Gal - She returned hoping to find a nice house built, but instead found a shell. Her father explained that her $100k was no where enough for the building of the house. She found out that he has gambled away the money. She has hope that the money would have built-up a nice house where all members of the family (including the mother) could be reunited and live under one roof. She went off disappointed and never return.
• Old Man - He returned after 32 years of work, to find that his son "married" off to a faraway place and when his son left, his son's wife cried herself blind and died. He managed to locate his son's address and the son agreed to bring him over. He refused and claimed that he is already home.

Chinaman has a great way of doing hard hitting themes. This I must give it to them. They wave their poverty as an excuse to do crime, to gamble (as there were no other meaningful activity in the village), to elope, to fuck another man and to exonerate one-self from all responsibilities.

I am sick to the core that my skin remained yellow, i.e., self-loafing. I am sure the other races are just as bad. The shit-skin is definitely in the same class as the yellow-skin, given their long cultural history. The pinoy-skin is not far either. Civilization has taught us nothing, except cunning, deceit and trickery. Even the Sun Tzu must advocate in his last and most important concluding chapter that we have to use deceitful spies to complete our tasks.

I know life is tough on that fucken little island. What makes you think that it is any easier in other parts of the world? We only just have to huddle together and try.  If one were to work hard and be extremely happy with what we already have. We wouldn't need so much want. We can always have the companionship of family and friends.

I am of course no saint. I cannot hope for a blissful end. But, I do hope in this festive season all kins are well.

That fucken little island is getting more and more poisonous. Even my childhood friends are going at each other's throat. Why? I asked. For that few crumbs of bread dropped from the table? The world is so big. Why? I asked again. Isn't there more to life than to compare, compete and connive? Isn't there better activity than to go at one another or for that matter, any throat. It was not just one on one, but gang versus gang. The few whites I knew are also going at each other's throat. This world is crazy.

Let's enjoy the show ...

g.Show - 非常完美 (2014)

The last part is here:   The Adventure

The show is here:   非常完美 (2014)

"即使我不是你一生中第一个女人, 我想成为你最后一个女人."

Amazing words. If a guy faced with this phrase, that guy would have fallen under her spell. This is how amazing words can bring a message.

Guys are such simple folks. So easily persuaded.

This show is not as traditional as 非誠勿擾.

Women are the one element in Chinese society that has most reformed in modern China. Compared to the feudal era, Chinese women can now go to school, get high-paying jobs, and even choose their own husbands. However, this advancement of equal rights and empowerment hasn’t been matched by a tacit acknowledge of such progress; instead, Chinese women are even more demanding towards their prospective mates by issuing impossibly high conditions for men to satisfy them. As Sinopathic showed you previously in an online list of rules to identify the “Perfect Chinese Man“, it appears Chinese women don’t want to find a husband so much as they want to find another father to raise them. 

This motivation isn’t revealed on “Very Perfect”, but their ambition is.

This world has gotten so complex that gals have mutated to such a complex being, so much so that guys simply couldn't catch up at all. Guys nowadays are quite lost. Without assets provided by their previous generations, these younger generations simply have no chance.

I saw it within one generation of broken marriage, the kids were literally destroyed by the bad side effects. The rate of destroyed marriages is so high now that it is almost impossible for kids to grow up comfortably. For these kids to survive, it is going to be real tough. I apologize for their pain. I wish I could have done better.

Apology is never enough, action must speak louder than mere words.

g.Show - 非誠勿擾

The last part is here:   Show - 楚漢傳奇 

The show is here:   非誠勿擾

This is actually a very bad post about the show. Not so much of the show per se, but the gals exhibited the worst of them coated with saccharin sweetness.

铁汉柔情 - Gals always expect the guys who made it super rich but yet never bed too many gals. Not married, no kids. Age was no issue. But, still romantic and willing to spend on the gal, absolute to be mind-controlled by the gal. Well, if the guy is super strong in business, he would be very strong-minded. That's what makes him very sexy in the first place.
There was once a guy who said that he had bedded over a 100 gals. He kept super long hair, reached ass. He was an investor who had very expensive taste in wine and alcohol. He was rich. But, zero gals went for him. They tried to poke holes into his persona. They made life very difficult for him, without truly giving him a chance to showcase himself or understand his psychic. The question remained that how can he bed 100 gals if the gals are not charmed by him. He was rejected simply for a showed revenge. All the gals knew that, in private, he will still find his gals.
He said something quite interesting. He felt no feelings towards the gals he bedded. I agreed with him. If he has not invested feelings, his path would be futile. Only if he invests in feelings, only then he will find happiness.
In fact, from his look and feel, I believed he must have bedded the most beautiful and the most ugly gal in his life. Therefore, this poor guy was no longer after pure looks, he was looking for some one he can spend his time quietly with. He felt the need to grow old together.
A lot of gals don't understand that a strong guy is not to be played with. He is not your toy. He must be respected. Once he felt that respect, he would be the most romantic guy on earth. Full of zeal and full of surprises. Isn't this what a gal dream about? Being that queen or princess? Play this game well, my dear.

Enjoying the limelight - 由于《非诚勿扰》良好的收视率，不少目的并不纯正的女嘉宾都希望在舞台上待的时间更长，而不愿意过早被男嘉宾选走。对此，李政表示，由于《非诚勿扰》不是综艺节目，不能用赛制去框定结果。但倘若某位女嘉宾在台上待的时间太长网友产生质疑，节目组会进行私下沟通，让嘉宾告知一个最后的期限。目前，马伊咪在舞台上停留了22期，而节目组的心理底限是20期左右。Some gals stayed for god-damn so long. They are not interested in finding that guy, but, to screw bad all the guys who came for them. Poor guys, they rolled, they spinned and they exploded. The gals don't understand these guys as they looked stupid or clownish in front of the cameras. Extremely beta-feel of them, but, mind you, gals, they would be the best alphas you could ever find on earth. They are never your clowns. But, how many gals understand these simpletons. They are simple because they have not faced hardship. Once they are forced into battle, they would be your worst nightmares.

大叔控 - Almost 50% of the gals declared that they are interested in guys who are much older and "stable". This is basically bullshit. They just want some one rich. But, once a while, they get some rich and young, they would change their tune and say they are emotionally indisposed.

Others - Those guys with simple jobs like gym instructor, music instructor, teacher, artist, dancer, IT, soldier, police and salesman, were all guaranteed to leave alone. They always say they had no "心跳", even though they are prima donas in human physique.

Mind-Control - Many gals would reject the guy once he showed to be very strong-headed. One of the best ways to con the gals is to appear amenable to suggestions but yet retain that strong money-making process. Even guys from USA and Europe were rejected simply because they have a simple jobs such as educators.

Young Failures - Very often young guys were rejected simply because they claimed that they like young brothers to them and so on. Very poor answers even though these young guys are tall, exercised and handsome, not a single small brother feel from them.

Superior Jobs - Pilots, medical doctors, mnc company ceo, vice-presidents of banks, owners of huge companies have more than 50% choice to choose from. On top of that, there are 24 gals waiting at the 爱转角 to snatch these prizes. So having good hunting skills are prime.

爱转角 - If in the event that the 24 gals didn't choose the guy, the guy might still be picked up by the 24 gals at 爱转角. Interestingly, these 爱转角 gals are quite pretty and young. Once confronted with zero opportunity to present her case in public, she will just stand up and say her piece. More often than not, the guy will just agree. These gals were young, pretty and very aggressive. I like these type of gals. Sometime in life, it is not about how rich the guy is. Even a rich guy will lose money if he is not careful. A poor guy would be rich if he applies his mind. There are no absoluteness in one's station. The most important thing in life I feel is respect. Give that respect and gain that mutual respect, no matter if it is a gal or guy, she or he would be happy. You might be on the pedestal today, feeling strong and proud, there is no guarantee that tomorrow you would not be dumped.

Opportunity - I feel funny today. An old friend contacted me and said that she might want to settle down in white land. I smiled. She was once upon the time a belle in our times. It is funny that she was not married. Till now, she looks stunning and gorgeous. I used to have nice feelings about her. She is very intelligent, very polite and very nice person. I don't understand why she was not married after all these years. I believe she must have had some issues. She has already dated me. I will find out more. Happiness must be gained through effort. I wish her well.

Let's enjoy the show ...

p.Show - 楚漢傳奇

This is the last part:   孫子兵法 (Part 1)

The show is here:   楚漢傳奇

Since I started writing the lessons learnt in 孫子兵法, there was not many materials to showcase the tactics used in SunTzu's Art of War.

In this show, it is 80 episodes in length. The teachings in this show are very vivid in terms of showing the various principles in the Art of War. I am not sure about its accuracy in history, but, it did show the various factors that influenced the outcome of war. It is as good as it gets. Watch it 10 times if you must. I have already keep a good copy for my periodic reviews.

The question frequently on my mind is which character do I want to be?

• 刘邦 - He was basically a user of man. He pretended to be useless, so he claimed to be in need of perpetual help. Once the help was fully rendered, he slaughtered them all in cold blood. He is so good at it that he reached emperor-ship, just by pretending. I would never work on this character mode. He was no more than another fucken. He played both ends. The lucky thing was he managed it all the way. But, based on this characterization, his future generations just like 秦始皇 were full of deceit to survive.
• 项羽 - He is 一代枭雄。I would like to be like him. He was caring to gals and he was loyal to his friends. But, at the same time, he was brutal in every sense of the word. The key to it all was that he was never disadvantaged in his younger years. He reached sky-high position when he was very young. He never did hit defeats and troubles. This light-headedness set him up for bitter failures later. Luckily I was never "lucky" in my younger years. I did show great brilliance, when I was young. But, at the same time, every one around me was no friend. They pushed me to the corner hoping to drown out my brilliance. Even georgie baby was fearful of my brilliance. With that, I was retired with very little means and successes. I was humbled to my very knees. But, I stood up once again with no prosthesis. I roared once again. I will not be brutal, though I could. I will not be proud, though I could. I will not be blind to other talents, though I could.
• 吕雉 - 一代铁血女皇，君临天下。We have to be weary of such women in our life. Every gal would turn to be like her if threatened hard enough. So please don't try testing the gals in your life.
• 萧何 - He was a very loyal subject. He survived just like an ordinary joe on the street. No win, no loss.
• 韩信 - He was very talented. He should have become a new god. But, he chose to become a long-term employee. Hence, retrenched at age 35, I guess. A bitter death as he served his all for an unloving organisation. If you asked me if he is a 帅才 or a 将才? I have a tendency to classify his talent as a 将才rather than 帅才, he merely showed prowess in winning battles using cunning. A 帅才must not only take care of the battle outcome, he must be responsible for the final outcome of the war. It is no use winning a war and to be swallow up again within a single generation. Winning a battle or war is easy. You just need numerical or resource superiority. But, to win a war ultimately, you need to grow in strength while others are dead. Look at the current situation, many large super marts are closing down, what then is your expected play of the circumstance. You can't just sit there and claim you have got no money. Wtf?
• 秦始皇 - Like a deadly virus, too vicious. His life was easily terminated with no recourse. The fuckened old guy was slightly less vicious, he would live a day longer, but not his empire. Money is nothing more than printed coloured paper, it meant nothing, not even gold.
• 逐鹿中原 - Although I wanted to win the war, but, I still like to be a honest kiddo. I truly don't prefer deceit to win my battles. Cunning, yes, but, not deceit. To truly win over one's opponents, one must win with great honesty. Only through honesty that one can retain the winnings. Your enemies will learn to respect you and give you that important victory. It is easy for me to amass money and people, but, I am weary of their ultimate ambitions. If I don't satisfy their ultimate ambitions, they will ultimately consume me alive. Just watch the show and you will know what i meant.

 Let's enjoy the show ...

b.Show - 倚天屠龙记 1986

The last part is here:   Show - 神雕侠侣 (1983) 

The show is here: 倚天屠龙记(梁朝伟)粤语版 1986

The song is here:   深山唱我歌 (1986) - 梅艷芳、梁朝偉

《倚天屠龍記》插曲
作曲：黎小田 填詞：黃霑 主唱：梅艷芳、梁朝偉

男：紛爭世界令我生厭　到深山唱我的歌
女：歌裡溫柔　陪著幽夢　全身輕輕撫我
男：冰天雪地裡未覺得冷　我心有熱有火
女：將我燒溶　融入幽夢
男：甜夢裡香雪海穿梭
女：偷偷
男：偷偷抱住你心
女：偷一世福和禍
男：和你和我
女：我心中注入你生命　熱情如在噴火
男：赤熱　啊　噴火
女：冰山裡
男：火山中
女：高臥
男：側坐
女：歡聲
合：醉倒萬里煙波

Just finished the show. Very happy. I relearned a phrase:   刻骨铬心

How many of us can truly find a love that is 刻骨铬心? Maybe it is only in shows and storybooks ...

經歷了半世紀的年月，經歷了許多情感的波瀾， 也看過了許多人世的滄桑，我發覺這世上最可歌頌、 最刻骨鉻心的還是愛。 且不論那愛發生得早或晚，只要是生死與之， 在當時能慷慨面對的，即使後來失敗了、後侮了， 甚至回想起來全然是無知與荒唐。 那愛，依然是愛，如同『玻璃的心屝』， 即使被打碎了，仍然曾經是個玻璃的心扉。 愛，沒什麼好悔，它只是那樣發生、那樣進展、 那樣消逝，或一一那樣老去。 今日不可能預測明日的愛，明天也不必否定今天的愛。 愛像是腳印，我們踩著、印著，走到今天。 回頭，即使腳印印在泥濘之中， 或早已湮滅，不復可尋，仍然知道， 那是我們走過來的愛。 每個年齡有每個年齡的愛。 愛沒有尊卑、沒有貴賤， 沒有成熟與不成熟。 人的一生能有多長， 人的一生就能有多少愛。

When life's grindstone is turning, one may have no time for love. But, when life's grindstone stops turning, there is no more life left to love. To hunt alone is sad, to hunt with a burden is sadder.

p.Show - The Hobbit II - The Desolation of Smaug

The last part is here:   Show - 神雕侠侣 (1983)

Just went to see The Hobbit II - The Desolation of Smaug. It was way better than Part I.

The show was enthralling to watch. However, there was not much theme, just loads of fighting. Multi-threaded.

Sometimes one shouldn't question why the things are demanded in the way it should. I must just possess blind-faith, grit my teeth and move on. There are many things I would like to question why. But, not all questions have answers.

Recently I have been gaming online. I lost many battles. So many players were much better player than I am. So many hustlers as well. It showed that in the real world, there are many many guys out there that would fake anything just to have a cheapo win over you. There is no honour in the game. To these guys, there is only one word - win at all cost (SunTzu's 孫子兵法).

But, I don't believe in that approach. Honourability is still to me key to the ultimate prize.

p.Show - 神雕侠侣 (1983)

The last part is here:   Show - 蝶影紅梨記

The show is here:   神雕俠侶 1983 (劉德華版) (Chinese)
or   神雕侠侣 1983 (刘德华 粤语/国语版) (Cantonese, slow)

The song is here:    留住今日情 The Return of the Condor Heroes - 張德蘭

留住今日情 
张德兰 《神雕侠侣》插曲

人间一切换了真爱 也莫去管人说是傻
任他世事全是障碍 此世此生也知非白过
曾经相见别去转眼 也莫痛苦何必悲哀
独知那日曾沐爱河 无谓悔恨未会感慨

那怕是苦缠绵只是愿 当日曾相爱
不必理今日梦不重来 心内情义誓不改
人间一切换了真爱 也未痛惜无叹奈何
雁分两地情义永在 谁惧以后梦也不可再

The song is here:   情義兩心堅 The Return of the Condo Heroes - 張德蘭

情義兩心堅 
原唱：張德蘭 作詞：鄧偉雄 作曲：顧嘉輝

情若真 不必相見恨晚 見到一眼再不慨歎
情義似水逝去 此心托飛雁 遠勝孤單在世間

情若真 不必驚怕聚散 變化轉瞬也應見慣
誰願去揮慧劍 此心托飛雁 縱隔千山亦無間
愛比朝露 未怕短暫 存在兩心堅 情不會淡
別去已經難 重會更艱難 愛火於心間 不冷

情若真 不必苦惱自歎 縱已失去也可再挽
情緣至今未冷 此心托飛雁 那怕悲歡何妨聚散
愛比朝露 未怕短暫 存在兩心堅 情不會淡
別去已經難 重會更艱難 愛火於心間 不冷

情若真 不必苦惱自歎 縱已失去也可再挽
情緣至今未冷 此心托飛雁 那怕悲歡何妨聚散
情緣至今未冷 此心托飛雁 那怕悲歡何妨聚散

Wow ... Managed to finish the show. 人间一切换了真爱, 也莫去管人说是傻. May all those in love stay in love and those yet to love, find love. 

There are still many good shows. Let's enjoy the show and explore more ...

p.Show - 蝶影紅梨記

The last part is here:   Show - 射雕英雄传 1983 (part II)

The show is here:   蝶影紅梨記 (全劇) - 任劍輝 白雪仙

The more I dwell into Chinese opera, the more I like it. The love stories were so pure and simple. No tricks. No scams. Love can be so rich, so clean and unblemished. The bads are always punished in the end, while the goods prevailed. But, I don't see them happening in real life. I do want to believe in karma, but, karma is taking too long a time. At the same time, so many weak ones have fallen. My tengri, how many more must fall before I see justice done?

The next time if I do have time, I will join the opera singing classes.

There were times that I wish I had never taken that money. The burden is now so heavy. With so much blessings and hopes rest on that every dollar, how can I rest now and ever with no regrets?

Please enjoy the show ...

p.My Heart must Go On ...

The last part is here:   Article - Unwilling to Burden Family with Medical Bills, 95 year old Samsui Woman Commits Suicide (II)

The full show is here:   千与千寻
The song is here:   千与千寻-片尾曲（童年回忆）

You must watch the show first in Japanese and then in other languages.

Tonight, I am unusually quiet. Scene by scene, my video just passes me by. I looked back, I looked forward, I looked left, I looked right, I looked up and I looked down. I realized I couldn't find myself. I have no spirit. Life just passes me by. In reality, I don't even exist.

After reviewing so many bad incidents, they blaze at me like a thunderclap. I can no longer turn a blind eye to all the miseries around me.

I may have been doing marginally better than most, but I am definitely not as well off as I can do charity full-time. I too realized that I am but a small candle burning with a weak flame.

Nonetheless I am still a candle, a candle no matter how weak can still give warmth to others. I can no longer shut my eyes and ears and pretend that nothing has happened. I cannot lie to myself that I am too weak to help. I really cannot. In short, I am just selfish. I can't even hold a candle and stand upright in front of the grand dame. I felt so small.

Once upon a time, in a land far away, a poor student received money to study at higher institutions. He was happy and excited that at last he can contribute to the wellness of everybody. But life was nasty to him. He was dejected to no ends.

Now he witnessed the death of an supreme old lady who gave her life for the betterment of everybody else. In fact, I am sure some of her monies also found its way to help this poor student during his studies.

The question now then is how can this poor student who benefited from superb education, courtesy of the old lady, turn his back to the lady's plight?

He could not. He  cannot. He will not.

My lady, thank you for alerting the dormant dragon in me. I cannot promise anything after your passing and contribute directly to your kins. But, I will work myself to the ground and for the goodness of the group of people who has built our home, so that I can once again get back my dignity and regain your respect.

My regrets have been although I can build a 1000 buildings per land, the white people will not be too kind to me for letting in the flood gate.

Mdm, please let me work my magic. I am sure there is a way.

For now, at least I have found my footing and even if I have helped only just one family, I am sure my forefathers before me will still accept me among the stars.

I have said many times before, each of us are off-springs of very high quality genes, if ever we had once before a weaker gene, we wouldn't have lived till now. In fact, the cold calculations of Mdm showed that age didn't blind her 20/20 vision, she knew exactly what to do when it is time for love offerings.

Thank you, Mdm.

May you bless each and every one of us who are still living to work towards a better future. Your death has enlightened me not to be blinded by physical wonders but to seek salvation of one's soul. What's the use of living when one is still indebted to and not paying back another's charity.

With so many decades more to go, Mdm, please bless me and those who will come forward to your rally call.

Goodbye, till we meet again among the stars ...

p.Article - Unwilling to Burden Family with Medical Bills, 95 year old Samsui Woman Commits Suicide (II)

The last part is here:   Article - Unwilling to Burden Family with Medical Bills, 95 year old Samsui Woman Commits Suicide

Chao chee bye ... As expected, this news has more or less died down. People are so superior-scented. But, they never know, once upon their blood-line, they must have had it bad too. So, please don't feel superior, there is none to begin with. Don't ever try to let karma extinguishes your blood-line like that of Hitler's and Stalin's.

I would like to say "thank you" to asingaporeanson, for writing about her in the essay, Die Can, Sick Cannot.

So much memories ... my partner-in-crime just told me that his mother might know her personally. I have already asked him to make arrangement for me to pay my respect to her when I next visit.

My blooded relation was in construction too. Back in those days, every one of us yellowskin was construction worker. We are part of a very big family with very common thoughts. My blooded relation had poor eye-sight due to poor working conditions. Did the fuckens knew? I bet they did. But, who cares!

If fuckens don't honour her, that doesn't mean I cannot do it. They are actually beneath my reproach.

Madam Lu, 
I would like you to watch this classic show - 
枇杷巷口故人來 (全劇) - 任劍輝 白雪仙

Please enjoy ...

I concurred with asingaporeanson. When I first landed in white land, I worked as a construction site worker, carrying rocks and breaking cement, at minimum wage for 8 bucks an hour, break-times were not counted as work. I couldn't even last 2 weeks in a construction site. Most whites are double my height. I was told to go by my boss, let alone trying for 40 years. This is not funny.

Rest well, please, Mdm ... May your life story be remembered ... I also hope that your family will allow your story to be remembered for future generations, learning from you the selfless and silent sacrifice. We shall drink to your goodness.

Yellowskins did not fail. They are hard-working, resourceful, thrifty and silent campaigners.

Based on the above qualities, the yellowskins would have done well everywhere they venture. But, no. Once they established themselves in foreign soil, instead of remembering how hard they have come along and help those newer, they choose to tekan the newer and burr-er immigrants, as the much easier targets.

But, to what ends, what comes round, goes round. The yellowskins then degenerate and become weak once again, to be tekan by others. Yellowskins' history is so full of such examples.

Tonight, let me focus on Madam Lu and those whom we might or might not have known, who have worked so tiredlessly for a future. She didn't let herself down. It is fuckens, men mouthing honesty, equality and honour, that have let her down. She has fulfilled her part of the bargain. I would very much like to fulfill mine by honouring her. 

It takes great courage to move from China to south. It takes even greater courage to judge what's good for the family and end it all. Your courageous act is no less significant than a soldier who throws himself on a land mine, so that his companions may not be pinned down in a hopeless struggle to survive.

Money cannot buy this act ... It must first come from love ...

My blood relation and my partner-in-crime's mum must have known you in person, staying in the same area. You are definitely family to us.

Rest well ... go well ...

(Purple Heart)

(Deep bow) x 3 ...

p.Article - Unwilling to Burden Family with Medical Bills, 95 year old Samsui Woman Commits Suicide

The last part is here:   Article - For China, Nobel Prize in science is still a big leap away

"This story bothered me. This granny has been working for the prosperity of that fucken little island all her life. It is precisely because of people like her that that fucken little island is what it is today. Even Ah Hole show cased her during the fake National Shit Rally. In the end, she has to end her life in this manner because the system was not able to lighten the burden on her three children. Why has it come to this? Where is the care in our system? It is stories like this that make me determined to get rid of the FuckenAP at all costs."

Unwilling to burden family with medical bills, 95 year old samsui woman commits suicide
(Translated Article)

Arrived in that fucken little island at the age of 18 years old. Admitted into hospital after a fall, unwilling to burden family with hospital bills, 95 year old Samsui Woman falls to her death.

95 year old grandmother who was once commemorated as a samsui woman, arrived in Singapore at the age of 18 years old, and worked 42 years in the occupation, tragically falls to her death.

Still remember the report that was made during September this year? 95 year old grandmother falls to her death, as she is unwilling to burden her family after being admitted to hospital.

Two months after the incident, Fucken Press got to know that this grandmother is the samsui woman, Lu Dai Hao whom the leader commemorated in the short clip shown in the 2007 fucken day celebrations.

Lu Dai Hao have been actively at work all her life, came to that fucken little island from Canton South at the age of 17 years old, became a samsui woman after getting married, and carried bricks and sand for 42 years in the construction sites.

After retirement, she helped families to tend to their kids, worked as an assistant in coffee shop, odd job supervisor for 20 over years till the point where her children dissuaded her from working over concern about her safely and finally got her retirement.

And even though this grandmother wasn’t working anymore, she couldn’t keep still and took buses to go around that fucken little island.

No one could expect how such a lively old folk could choose to end her own life.

According to her children, the trigger to this tragedy was her 3 week hospitalization in July after a fall in her home.

Daughter, Feng Lun Ping (50, accountant) sighed and said, “My mother worked as a samsui woman for 40 over years with not even one word of complaint.

She did everything that there is for the family without complain, and the choice to take this path at the age of 95 years old was also for the sake of her family.

Ultimately, my mother just didn’t want to burden her children!”

Lu Dai Hao passed away on 11th September 5.32pm, she lived at redhill road block 77A when she was still alive.

Just when I thought I have a sound night tonight. How can those 躝癱 do such heinous act and still sleep well at night? It is a sad day. 屌你老母臭化閪 ...扑你个街 ... These 冇屎忽畜类 really 衰到贴地. 偷呃拐骗, 生安白造 ... everything also can do.  冚家剷吾係粗口, 扑你個臭街都唔係, 屌鳩撚柒閪先係. Surely this is such a hopeless state for yellowskins. May all their off-springs of 冇屎忽畜类 die a thousand deaths. May those who suffered under these hands find peace finally. Death may not be pretty, at least you are now in peace. Go, if you must. Go, if you chose. May you always have my soft heart. I pray for your safe journey to the other world. May your generous act be appreciated by those whom you once loved. May they never forget your warm hands that once brought them to life. I wish I could have done more, but I couldn't. I am sorry. Of all my intelligence, I couldn't even save myself, let alone another one's soul.

One day, I would build a monument and a museum in remembrance of you guys. It may not have helped in anyway while you guys are still alive, but, at least I try to preserve the memories that you have once given your entire lives to.

May you rest finally in peace ... Go now ... You are free once again ...
冚家剷

Afternote:
I would like to dedicate this show to you. Please enjoy ...
紫釵記 (全劇) - 任劍輝 白雪仙 梁醒波 

There is nothing I can do more now. But, I promised when I next return, I shall seek out your kins and collect some of your memories to build the monument and museum in remembrance of you. Here, I would like to thank you for making our lives that much more comfortable. Those bricks and labour of joy must have found fondness in your heart. I humbly give you thanks.

冚家剷 ... I teared again just by re-reading this essay ... Sorry ... My throat hurts ...

p.Show - 射雕英雄传 1983 (part II)

The last part is here:   Show - 射雕英雄传 1983 

The best songs:
四张机 (《射雕英雄傳之東邪西毒》插曲)

四张机
演唱：甄妮

四张机
鸳鸯织就欲双飞
可怜未老头先白
春波碧草 晓寒深处
相对浴红衣

桃花開 (《射雕英雄傳之東邪西毒》插曲)

千愁記舊情 (《射雕英雄傳之華山論劍》插曲) - 羅文

千愁記舊情
射鵰英雄傳之華山論劍插曲
沒有月也不見星 迷茫路伴孑影
從此斯人失去 剩我千愁記舊情
紅日再不會升 熱心漸似冰 從此星沉天際 剩我低徊血淚凝
日日伴隨難再現 夜夜叫喚亦不應
舊日笑面上的萬般千種親愛 消失風中 風卻未靜
含淚訴不清 問天未有聲 何日再歡顏相見 復得斯人說舊情

肯去承擔爱（甄妮）

肯去承擔爱（甄妮）
曲 : 顾 嘉 辉　词 : 黄 沾
早已明知对他的爱 开始就不应该
我却愿将一世 交换他一次真意对待
我是宁可抛去生命 痴心决不愿改
为了他甘心去忍受 人间一切悲哀
在我心中这份浓情 没有东西能代
肯去承担爱的苦痛 敢去面对未来
我是宁愿改我生命 痴心也不愿改
...

四张机 鸳鸯织就欲双飞 可怜未老头先白 春波碧草 晓寒深处 相对浴红衣 ...

So simple ... So perfect a rhythm ...

Life is actually a very simple thing. We just have to live a simple and passionate style.

The hero in the show is 郭靖. A dumb guy who is just pure hard-working and very straight. I can identify with him. Being cunning is never my cup of tea. May tengri saves me from temptations of greed. But, on the other hand, I always had 杨康 in my mind. Trying to employ cunning all the time. 一念一天堂，一念一地狱 ... Sigh ...

30 full years have passed me by ...

Do join me to watch the show in its former glory ...

p.Show - 射雕英雄传 1983

The last part is here:   Show - 天龍八部之六脈神劍 1982 

The show is here:   射雕英雄传83版 粤语

The actors were 黄日华,翁美玲,苗侨伟,杨盼盼. A beautiful combination. This is a very, very good show. Never stopped watching every 10 years. Another journey opens ...

Plenty of chance to cry.
满江红 - 罗文

怒髮衝冠 憑欄處 瀟瀟雨歇
抬望眼 仰天長嘯 壯懷激烈
三十功名塵與土 八千里路雲和月
莫等閒 白了少年頭 空悲切
靖康恥 猶未雪 臣子恨 何時滅
駕長車 踏破賀蘭山闕
壯志飢餐胡虜肉 笑談渴飲匈奴血
待從頭 收拾舊山河 朝天闕

To survive, we have to surround ourselves with familiar objects. Don't try to assimilate. You would be disappointed.

On this land, there are so many pinoys. They are locusts to the land. Don't trust any pinoys. The guys and gals are great consters. I have no good fuckens with them.

It may seem slow if we don't integrate with the locals, we would be shunt from their communities. But, what's the use of joining their communities to feel lost. Our direction is to be hard working. You won't learn it right from them. Most of the locals are so used to be lazy that we would end up even more lost. These guys are willing to take on jobs that are always at minimum wages. They talked non-stopped about the weather. But, I couldn't. I can't even live just for myself. Such is the difference. We just have to burn a little more to get going faster.

I just received good news that my wares have orders. A very, very small order indeed, but, it was good enough for me. A very honest deal. A very delightful project. I wish all who were involved happy days. This project is very important not only to me, but to all the families involved with the project. If done correctly, this business will feed them and their families for the next thousand years. I am glad to be of good company. First, I would like to thank my partner-in-crime for believing in me that a maverick like me could be controlled and directed towards greatness. My humble thank-you to him. Next, I would like to thank a friend. She single-handedly against all odds fulfilled my bidding. Harshly, at many times. I apologized for my brashness. It was the pressure to see the project through. It was so hard, hard, hard for 4 long years. I hope she forgives me for the bad behaviour. I will do my utmost never to disappoint her. There are many others. You and I know who we all are. A big thank-you. I better don't listed them out. Lol. Otherwise, my infrastructure is as naked as the day.

We must be in business. Fool's stop.

Let's enjoy the show ... I will comment about the show later ...

p.Show - 天龍八部之六脈神劍 1982

The last part is here:   Show - 致我们终将逝去的青春

The show is here:   天龍八部之六脈神劍

Just re-watch the old, old show. So much memories. So much nostalgia. It was almost like yesterday. So gay. So light. So free.
倆忘煙水裡 1982年電視劇《天龍八部之六脈神劍》主題曲)

天龍八部之六脈神劍插曲-為你生為你死

付上千萬倍 (修改)
作詞：黃沾 作曲：顧家輝
為你生也為你死 未怕苦也全不悔
我此生甘願 呈奉每點愛 系得同心佩
為你歡也為你喜 為你悲也無一點悔
那管百般淚 和著百般愛 誓不忍相背
為得心裡半回蜜 更多更詳盡歌詞
就肯飲千盅苦杯 為得你情與義
願付上千千萬倍 學那春蠶吐心絲 
自縛繭追隨君背 掏盡我生命
來換你的愛 盡此生都不悔

天龍八部之六脈神劍插曲-湘女多情

湘女多情
歌词： 关菊英 梁漢銘曲 蕭笙詞
万缕垂杨 柳浪莺鸣 绿野上蝴蝶诉情
盛放红菱 吐艳水上 湖上把鸳鸯订
慢诉静听 伴侣低诉互倾 悦耳动听
尽数湘女是柔情 愿你静听 欢乐声
绰约丰姿相辉映 共舞霓裳 美妙轻盈
月下双双倩影 互爱定情 结下关睢咏
缘份乃三生早证

《天龍八部之虛竹傳奇》插曲 情愛幾多哀 1982 關正傑

情愛幾多哀
作詞：黃沾　作曲：顧嘉輝
情和愛　幾多哀　 幾度痛苦無奈 無窮怨　幾多冤
幾許悽然期待 情和愛　幾多災　 幾度要將人害 迷茫網
一張開　 要你蹈進孽海 幾多次枉癡心　 換了幾多傷害來
衝不過　千般障礙　 剩得斷腸感慨 明明知　愛有害　
可是我偏也期待　 但求得　她一笑 彷佛抵上萬次災　
幾多次枉癡心　 換了幾多傷害來 衝不過　千般障礙　
剩得斷腸感慨　 明明知　愛有害 可是我偏也期待　
但求得　她一笑　 彷佛抵萬次災 爲換到　她的愛　 甘心衝進恨海

Every time I look at things. There is always many losses. 學那春蠶吐心絲 自縛繭追隨君背 ... I wondered how many can do this for their loved one ... I never had hope for 我的传奇 ... but, deep down, don't we all had hoped. How enthralling ...I would one day bring 湘女 to go punting ...

Lets' enjoy the show ...

g.Show - 致我们终将逝去的青春

The last part is here:   Song - 心債 1984

The show is here:   致我们终将逝去的青春

18岁的郑微（杨子姗 饰）终于如愿考上青梅竹马邻家大哥哥林静（韩庚 饰）所在学校的邻校，等她满怀期冀地步入大学校园，却遭遇打击——林静出国留学，杳无音信。郑微倍感失落，患难时刻与室友阮莞（江疏影 饰）、朱小北（刘雅瑟 饰）、黎维娟（张瑶 饰）及师哥老张-张开（包贝尔 饰）结 下深厚友谊，同时富家公子许开阳（郑恺 饰）对郑微展开了疯狂的追求，而备受男生欢迎的阮莞用她特有的清冷守护着对于心爱人赵世永（黄明 饰）的忠贞。一次偶然的误会使郑微与老张室友陈孝正（赵又廷 饰）结为死敌，在一次次地反击中，郑微发现自己爱上了这个表面冷酷、内心善良的高材生，于是疯狂地反击演变为死缠烂打地追求，而陈孝正也终于在强攻之下缴械投降，欢喜冤家终成甜蜜恋人。大四毕业之际郑微的生活再次经受考验：陈孝正得到曾毓（王嘉佳 饰）的出国留学名额，却迟迟不敢告诉郑微，感觉再次被欺骗的郑微痛苦地离开陈孝正…… 　　多年后，郑微已蜕变为职场上的白领丽人，竟再次品尝命运的无常：带着悔意和爱意的林静和陈孝正同时回到她的生活里！郑微，这个昔日的玉面小飞龙，将怎样面对生活和青春赐予她的迷雾和抉择……

If a gal treats you honest and well, you must never ever bluff her. Unfortunately it is so ironic that the guy will always think he could get away by bluffing her.

The guy in the show made his career on top of his gf, which I feel is not wrong. But, he should have told her about it. Every gal loves a career-minded guy. There is nothing better than a guy who is career-minded and able to feed the love nest.

But he must never think that being ruthless, intelligent and topping in his studies alone is testimonial to being that man, successful and all-powerful in real life. I have once gone through that same path. I received no joy. I received no satisfaction.

After I have studied the results discovered by Dr Calhoun, I came to realise that I hate my intelligence. Intelligence is a curse of that fucken little island, it drove me to bitter ends. Everything I did, I did it with the measuring tape of the dollar sign. It sickened my stomach as I wrote. There was no love of the land. No love of existence. No desire to do good for the family. Everything was about showing off to the Joneses. What a waste of my life.

It is so hard to find someone who can be honest to you for a life-time. If I ever find one, I would have clinged on to her with my dear life and never let her go.

To regret and wallow in the past is not an answer to lost opportunity. Trust me, you can never take that bitterness. I hope within my lifetime, I am still given another chance. I promised to do it well.

Now I only have my blog to talk monologue to ...

I guess no matter how big the warship is, it still needs a harbour to come to rest ...

Let's enjoy the show ...

p.Show - 错龙袍/倾城雪

The last part is here:   Show - 精忠岳飞 (Part 2)

The show is here:  错龙袍/倾城雪

If you want plenty to cry but afraid to let others around know that you are crying, just watch this show.

Maybe I am just an old worn record repeating so many things. Give everyone a chance to show you how good they are. Give them some patience. Give them time to align themselves to you. They will eventually.

With the conquest at the land of crescent lake more or less in the bag, suddenly I noticed everyone is aligned to me. To some, their alignments are true. I know that deep in my heart. To many others, I know their alignments are driven by greed. These guys just want to share the mammoth I have landed.

To those fakies, just give them time to show themselves. Pull back all the resources that you might have given them. They will be spiteful but who cares. If they beg to return, maybe consider giving them another test. If they passed the test, then consider giving them a minor role. Never entrust them anymore with big items as they have proven to be unworthy.

For those faithful ones, treat them like family members. They will serve you well. Money will come in well if you trust your own family members well.

Dwell in every happy moment and grit that teeth during the sadder ones. It is always like that. 9 out of 10 is always sad.

p.Show - 精忠岳飞 (Part 2)

The last part is here:   Show - 精忠岳飞 (Part 1)

This is really a long, long show. In the show, it showed Yue Fei as someone who truly loved his middle kingdom and wanted to win back his land from the Manchurians, hence, he wrote the famous four words: "还我河山" (return me river hill).

He was very single-minded in his task. 

Finally, Yue Fei received the 'Twelfth Golden Edict' [from the emperor calling him back to the capital], which if ignored meant banishment. Patriotism demanded that he obey. On his way back to the capital he stopped to rest at a pavilion. Qin Hui anticipated Yue Fei's route and sent some men to lie in wait. When Yue Fei arrived, Qin's men ambushed and murdered him. Just 39 years old, Yue Fei like many good men in history (such as Genghis Khan and Steve Jobs), had a swift, brilliant career, then died brutally while still young.

This year has been a good year for me. Now into the autumn period, I had lots of time to reflect what I have done for my entire life: The complete frustration that I was robbed of my rightful inheritance. Surprisingly, 还我河山 aptly described my feelings all this while. The absolute fervour in fighting back and reclaiming my rightful throne is intense. Now I know where my frustration lied. I didn't know before, but now I know.

It is that deep-set need to reclaim what's rightfully mine. With this new found understanding, I am now better at directing this frustration into an energetic force to my deploy.

But, I am not interested in working so hard that I will die young like Yue Fei, Genghis Khan nor Steve Jobs. One good thing that works in my favour is that I do have lots of very good partners having the same motivation as I do. Let me therefore acquire more land to accommodate their ambitions. Every journey makes me more and more energetic in a good way. Nice.

My golden chariot is now waiting outside for me to embark on my next journey - The Land of the Crescent Lake.  (._.)

I implore you to watch the show ...

p.Show - 精忠岳飞

The last part is here:   Show - Jobs (乔布斯)

The show is here:   精忠岳飞

满江红   (南宋)岳飛（1103-1141）
怒髮衝冠 憑欄處瀟瀟雨歇
抬望眼 仰天長嘯 壯懷激烈
三十功名塵與土
八千里路雲和月
莫等閒白了少年頭空悲切

靖康恥 猶未雪
臣子恨 何時滅
駕長車踏破賀蘭山缺
壯志飢餐胡虜肉
笑談渴飲匈奴血
待從頭收拾舊山河 朝天闕

Yue Fei （1103-1141）
Wrath stood my hair to throw off my hat
On railings I leaned 
Seeing the rain ceased 
I raised my eyes high 
To the sky I crooned long and high 
How my patriotic devotion was denied 
To dust and earth my thirty- year achievements in arms have now returned 
Together with eighty thousand li of cloud and moon 
Youthful wills must not be wasted in greying 
Forever regret 

Humiliation by a capital in defeat is not yet put at bay 
A general’s hate its vengeance must not be delivered in delay 
I will ride my chariot again 
To break through the He Lan Mountain pass 
Let’s realize our aspirations to dine with the enemy’s flesh for meat 
With the Hun’s blood we quench our thirsts in laughter and heat 
Whence we recover our lost land in our own hands 
‘Tis time we face the royal court in army ranks

小重山   (南宋)岳飛（1103-1141）
昨夜寒蛩不住鳴
驚回千里夢 已三更
起來獨自繞階行
人悄悄 簾外月朧明

白首為功名
舊山松竹老 阻歸程
欲將心事付瑤琴
知音少 弦斷有誰聽

Yue Fei （1103-1141）
Incessantly autumn crickets sounded through the night 
Breaking my dream a thousand li my home nigh 
‘Twas well after midnight 
Up alone I paced the yard round and round 
Not a soul around 
By the window the moon was bright

For glory I paid with hair grey in tow 
The bamboos and pines at home must have grown old 
Homebound journey is on hold 
To my lute I wish to confide what’s in my mind 
No Listener 
Who would hear broken strings speaking feelings of the mind

The show is to recreate the love of middle kingdom by one man.

The life of an immigrant is never easy. There are many regrets and many mis-steps. 

Regret that all the ones we hold dear are not with us. Regret that for every passing festival we eat alone. Regret that we no longer share the same mother tongue. Regret that I am free, they are not. Regret that they are dying little by little.

Mis-step that none of the new acquaintances are true. Mis-step that all our skills are not put to good use. Mis-step that we are cheated at every turn. Mis-step that we are robbers of the locals. Mis-step that we are willing to integrate but the locals are not willing to accept.

At these very interesting times, we are movers and shakers. There are great opportunities await us. There are great adventures await us. Let's all go on a journey - even if it is a journey of no return - I will still have no regrets. I count not how many obstacles, I count not the price. I count not the sands of time. I shall witness life once more.

Let's enjoy the show ...