p.Song - 心債 1984

The last part is here:   Song - 逝去的諾言 (陳慧嫻 1984)

The song is here:   梅艷芳 心 債 1982 (this link has many songs after)

電視劇《香城浪子》主題曲
歌詞 作詞：詞：黃沾 作曲：顧嘉輝

重重心中癡債  原是欠下你一世  無限無盡愛在我心底
悠悠心中癡意  源源不絕撫慰  只望可補償一切  明明用盡了努力
明明事事都不計  為什麼萬般癡心  都等如枉費  原來今生心債
償還不是一世  千代千生難估計
( MUSIC )
悠悠心中癡意  源源不絕撫慰  望可補償一切  明明用盡了努力
明明事事都不計  為什麼萬般癡心  都等如枉費  原來今生心債
償還不是一世  千代千生難估計

Again my heart is very soft today. Scenes from the past just flashed passed me like an old and ancient story. So many happy moments, also so much more sadness. Tears were so uncontrollable.

I have said that one day, I would bring my true love to a place I called my birth-place. We would sit by the river and play with the cool water. I would tell her about my dreams. I would show her my martial arts. I would expound my military strategies like a proud general. I do have only simple hope and simple joy. I am so easily pleased.

But, the strange world had made me into a monster. I am now scarred for life. I am no longer the young innocent lad that you once knew me. I was then but a simple soul. Why did you reach me and then dump me like a used rag? Why did you see only the money part and forget about within that body therein lies a soft soul that could be harmed so easily.

I blamed no one but myself and myself only. I hope that one day you would finally find happiness again, happiness that you never did get from me. I never detect any love from you, I guess you never once love me. I hope you finally find your true love and happiness now.

Don't use any more deceit to any new guy that comes along as it has harmed me totally. Maybe you wouldn't do that charade if you had truly loved.

It is now so difficult for me to love again. So much restraints. So much uncertainties.

Now that, I have almost grown to another level. I guess you never knew that a fallen guy could still move on to find that path that truly defines him. It is a path that beyond my wildest dream, but yet the person that is going to witness this is not you. I had all along wanted it to be you. I had so much wanted to show it off to you that I have finally arrived. But, I guess that option is no longer possible. I can't share it with some one that doesn't love me at all. Sigh ... so much lost time.

Although there are so many mis-steps, I believe we still all live to a better future. I will learn to treasure ever more those that are true to me.

Thank you once again for the negative instruction. I will learn my lesson well. I truly beared no more blame game. I only blame myself for being so blind to all the signs. To let go is, I guess, my best salvation. I am slow and still reminiscing the hurt, but I will get there some day.

All my life, I had been a beta. Small, happy and contented. The cruel life dictates that I must be an alpha. Now that I am a true alpha, I still long to be a beta.